bratty princess's blog: "poems"

Pain stuffed inside of me Can't let anyone near me Can't let anyone see the real me Can't let anyone even hug me All this pain that's held in me Why can't anyone see the real me Why can't anyone help me Why can't someone just hold me All this pain that's eating me Can't let go of the pain in me Can't get this pain from me Can't get this pain out of me When will the pain stop hurting me Why can't I just feel me Why can't I just be me Why can't someone take this pain from me

There is a pain within this heart, My pain within my sadness through my eyes, My eyes are like a burden that you can see right through me, No pain I ever felt was that one single broken heart that had been left behind and never got a chance to be healed, There is way out of this pain but somehow I can’t see it, See the light, the hope, the happiness I once wanted to feel, Now I ever feel is this sadness, this pain, this heartache, A pain within these wall I can hear it say, There is no way out, No way to wash away the pain, The pain I feel.

It hurts in side this lonely heart It’s all the pain inside Pain with no love Pain with loneliness Pain Inside Lost Lonely Empty Confused Not knowing where to go Pain Inside Please stop the pain inside this lonely heart Lonely sprit Lonely soul I am hurting inside Needing love Needing someone to care Please stop the pain inside Pain Inside

MY HEART WAS BRUISED AND BROKEN THEN I MET YOU MY SOUL WAS DEAD THEN I MET YOU MY MIND WAS OVERWHELMED THEN I MET YOU MY HEART BEGAN TO HEAL WHEN I MET YOU MY SOUL CAME TO LIFE WHEN I MET YOU MY MIND BECAME CALM WHEN I MET YOU MY HERT BECAME WHOLE ONCE YOU LOVED ME MY SOUL FOUND ITS OTHER HALF ONCE YOU LOVED ME MY MIND STARTED TO HEAL ONCE YOU LOVED ME

Before I lay me down to sleep, I pray for a man, who's not a creep, One who's handsome, smart and strong. One who loves to listen long, One who thinks before he speaks, One who'll call, not wait for weeks. I pray he's gainfully employed, When I spend his cash, won't be annoyed. Pulls out my chair and opens my door, Massages my back and begs to do more. Oh! Send me a man who'll make love to my mind, Knows what to answer to "how big is my behind?" I pray that this man will love me to no end, And always be my very best friend.

I pray for a deaf-mute nymphomaniac with huge boobs who owns a bar on a golf course, and loves to send me fishing and hunting. This doesn't rhyme and I don't give a shit.

I hurt, oh how I hurt Searching for answers Where do I turn? My heart filled with despair Crushed and torn apart Should I make a new start? Or should I just forget about it and not go on Theres no point in living My life is pointless; worthless What the hell did I do to deserve this? Everybody is leaving me behind I need a place to go and unwind To escape from it all I need answers I need help I need someone to save me from all hell I need love I need hope I need someone to help me cope I need direction I need understanding But most of all I need to know that Im needed

Why must you be so far away? I see you only in my dreams I need you now, here with me I need to feel your arms around me I love you so much yet your so far away Why can't you be here, with me, today? I need you know, I need your shoulder to cry on I need to feel your arms around me I will make you see That I love you, you mean the world to me I need to feel your lips upon mine And I need to feel your fingertips gently caress my cheek I need you so much, even as I speak You mean the world to me, I will make you see That I love you so, and I need you here with me.

Depression, if only it would go away It makes me wonder why I live life this way Why I go from day to day Trying to look for the light But the darkness just pulls me back Pain consumes me And I want to escape Not worth the breath of life I wonder why Im even here Life was just a mistake Just a face lost in the crowd Screaming so loud But its like no one hears I wipe away these tears But more fall Trying so hard to be strong But a silent tear is all I have to show I dont want to face this pain anymore I want to lock myself away from all the world Im so confused Sick of life Sick of the pain Sick of going through this shit from day to day Why must I live life this way? Guess Ill never know Silent tears are all I have to show

At night I sit alone and watch the shadows dance around. I hold my breath and listen yet silence is the only sound. I reach for some comfort yet feel no embrace. I am tired of the emptiness and loneliness of this place. I can feel no more hurt because I have learned to live with my pain. I often wonder how I survived and continue to stay sane. I have hurt so deeply and cried too many tears. I have been empty and broken for so many years. I am tired of pretending that I am fine and all is okay. I am tired of hiding behind this mask I wear every day. I have drifted so far and can no longer be saved. These feelings hold me captive and to them I am enslaved.