Driving down a lonely road
No where to go, nothing to do
My mind wandering away
Trailing on thoughts of you
Lights flash by, blurring my vision
And I slowly trail over the line
A horn sounds, then a loud crash is heard
And the fault of it all is mine
People screaming, sirens blaring
Men in white carrying me away
And once again, I trail away
Maybe this time it's a place I can stay
Eyes close, men scream
They try desperately to keep me stable
My heart beat is erratic now
And they do all that they're able
But somewhere along that lonely road
I hear the call of Death in my head
And my eyes close as I drift away
But suddenly I awake in a bed
Machines beeping, liquids flowing,
Tubes trailing in and out of my veins
Pain shooting through every nerve
And me hoping I can move at all again
A doctor notices I'm awake
He asks me if I can speak at all
I open my mouth to say yes
But my words just flow out and fall
He nods and smiles reassuringly
And tries to tell me everything is okay
But the look on his face says it all
His gaze drops and he walks away
Family and friends rush in
Glad to see me awake and alive
But from what the doctor's face showed
I don't even believe I'll survive
But I smile at them all
Trying to give them some hope
Hoping that if worse comes to worst
They will all be able to cope
A few days pass by, my health gets a little better
My speech returns and I'm feeling well
I ask for a phone, say that there is someone I need to call
And I want them to hurry so that my voice won't fail
The doctor tells me what's going on
What all is wrong and that there's nothing they can do
I smile weakly and take the phone from him
As my thoughts once again trail back to you
My family all has stepped out, they need their rest as well
I slowly dial your number, my fingers barely working at all
I hear your voice answer right before the last ring
And for once my smile doesn't falter at all
You ask what's wrong, why I haven't called
And I slowly explain it all to you
I tell you not to cry, that I'll put up a fight before I die
And that my last heart beat will belong to you
Suddenly there's an ache deep down
My body twitches and it's hard to breathe
My time is coming faster than expected
And it's almost time to finally leave
The doctors rush in, a nurse call my family
He tries to take the phone away
I shake my head and keep it in my hand
And slowly to him I say,
"This is how I want to go, this is how I want it to end
Talking to the one who holds my heart
Don't deny me my final request please
Don't let my final moments be you tearing us apart."
The doctor sighs and nods, and tells me go ahead
The machines beep louder and I nod to him
He nods back sadly and unplugs them all
And I tell him to say a few words when my family comes, to all of them
I turn back to the phone, and speak to you
And right before I finally drift away
I try to smile and with my last breathe
I very softly begin to say,
"My dear, my love, my darling angel
This is not what I wanted to do
But with my last breathe, and the last beat of my heart
I just want to say, that in this life and the next...I love you"
You return my words and cry softly
And the phone slowly falls away from my ear
My very last moment on the Earth
Is hearing your voice so near
So it finally ends
All my suffering and pain
And you know that I will love you
Until in the afterlife we meet again
