Andros The Hell Spawn of Lastats Dark Co...'s blog: "Poems"

The demons of my past are talking to my mind, I can hear their voices.When I dream I can see them they want me to give myself to them totally, so they can give me the strength to go on with my life. So, am I truly ruled by my own demons or are they just toying with my mind and soul? If they have total control, will I ever find true love or am I destined to wander the Earth in search of her forever with only my demons to comfort me? If only I could break their hold on me, I might be able to find the strength to go on. Until then I am a slave to my own inner demons.

Why can't I find someone that truly understands me? My soul is dark and in that respect, I am consumed by the darkness never to see light in my soul again. I wonder what would happen if I ever did find someone that could see the darkness in my soul and not care if my soul was tainted with darkness? Could that even be possible? I don't think so. When they do see how dark my soul really is, they find a reason to run away. The question? What am I supposed to do? The answer, who knows.

She has shattered my world yet again but, still I love her in my heart. The demons of my past are here to keep me sane, with her leaving me for my beat friend. I don't have anything left to believe in like love, hope, and joy. It's back to my own twisted little world that is covered in darkness. I will face whatever demon that I have to. I will either become strong enough to go on with my life or just simply give up and fade away into nothing.

I have to let you go but, you are still in my dreams and on my mind every second othe the day and night. When I close my eye I see you in my dreams so, how can I keep from ripping my heart and soul to pieces. An old friend gave me some advice, all he told me was to embrace the darkness of my own soul, only then could I hope of finding a way of letting you go. So that I can find someone else or am I doomed to carry the love that I have for the girl that I lost around inside my heart and soul forever. Because I can't let her go.

My soul is chained to you by my own love for you even if you are not talking to me right now. So why can't I talk to others without feeling like my soul is tainted with guilt. You say that my soul is consumed with darkness so, what am I to do? Wait for you or find someone new to build a relationship with? My heart tells me to wait but, my mind tells me to move on with my life. It was your decision not mine to put us on hold but, my soul is still chained by my love for you.