Cat's blog: "poems"

Slideing by, with no direction in mind. No plans or agenda. Just trying to stay alive. Why is it so hard to survive? To keep my head above water? I can't keep people away. Never alone, afraid I will do something harmful. Locked with no key or way out Is there anyone to help or save me from my chains?

Pain and sadness Depression and despair How ironically they fit together Intertwined in a web. Always hurting and alone Never ment for happiness Walking alone and cold Why can't forever come soon? I start to help it along, But this so called life never ceases No matter how I try to change It always ends the same. No more cries or tears No one in, no one out Time to face my fears Time to turn out the lights!!

Draw me in, pull me close Dangle my life on a string Attentions become altered in a second Cut my loose once again. Time goes by, you want to come back Things have dramatically changed. Feelings no longer the same. I'm not the same person I once was. What do you do now when u have nothing left to give? Everyone knows your tricks and secrets They know you'll never stop. Stepping closer to me, wanting to touch. I side stop out of your reach Your look changes instantly Remember, I am no longer the same person!

Tears are not meant for loved ones...because if they truely loved you, they wouldnt have to make you cry!!!!!

Isn't it funny how some people who supposedly have a problem with someone else they run to the internet and bitch about them,.....YET they wont confront them about it. They write blogs and such to that person...but that person isnt allowed to view them. So, how is that person supposed to know what they say about them????? Some people are sooo fucking stupid it;s not even funny!!!!! Here's a little FYI people.....if you have something to say to or about someone...don't whimp out and do it over the net....GO TO THAT PERSON!!!! MAN THE FUCK UP AND GET OVER IT!!!!!!!!!!!

Take me away! ease my pain I have no strength to play Even though it still goes on, the game Take me away let my babies stay Make them go on at least for another dawn. Take me away Baby it's gonna be ok Make it to another day Then you can lay Take me away Todays the day Leave me, if you may Don't watch as I die, if your gonna stay. Take me away Use my memories as you may I'll watch over you where ever you play. Remember, I left for you, will you live for me today?

Disease and pain No longer the same game Hopes and dreams gone in a second Spirits beckon Coughing and not keeping anything down Will I soon be under the ground? Calling your name but your off in another game I wish you would of stayed So maybe this time I wouldn't feel so played I'm glad I got this disease because now I don't have to see you with my niece I wish you would know but now I have to go No matter what or how ever many times I called you a SLUT I get a new life maybe this time without you in my sight maybe this time I'll be able to fight Once more I will say I finally get my wish

Anger! a feeling most hate. Especially coming from a mate. Anger! How's it feel?is it like your last meal? As veins pulse, blood warms, fist clinches, and heart quickens. Do you get the urge to pase, scream, yell, hit, or cut? Different poem) Clinch your jaw, hit a wall, muscles tight, words fly from your mouth, yelling. Anger turns to yelling, yelling leads to screaming, screaming turns into pushing, pushing goes to hitting, hitting leads to throwing, throwing turns to beating, beating ends up with pain, pain has to be treated. You are treated in a hospital. Hosiptal results in bills, Bills end in Anger. Bills end in pain. And it all starts again... if your still here.

When you look at me, what do you see? When I look at you, I don't see a fool. I see you changeing and growing. I see your eyes fill with truth as the tears start flowing. I see you try to push everyone away Please don't let me go today! Reason is not on your side, But don't let down your pride. Stay here with me awhile, until you see, Your not the only one not free!

Don't tell me you'll save me before you walk away. Don't tell me you love me if your not gonna stay. Don't tell me the things that will make me stay. Don't tell me the like it will be ok. Don't tell me it will be fun if you only want to lay. Don't tell me the things that I don't want to say.