Queen Of The Night im gone for now and ...'s blog: "POEMS"

i wrote this one when i was 18 and first found out about me being pregnant but wound up loosing the baby befor it was even born :( I loved him so much, I decided that it was time, To give him something, Of a whole new kind. I thought that I was too young, But he reasurred me, That he had loved me forever, And he would never hurt me. I trusted him, And let him do what he wanted. Now I got something new coming, Something unwanted. How could this be? I am too young, To have a child, As quick as it sprung. I never thought that this would happen, At least not to me. I thought that this only happened, In shows on TV. Now I know how they feel, When they dont know what to do. I want to be happy, But that feeling is not true. I will love this child, No matter what, I want to be its mother, But... I am still in high school, I need this time, To be my own person, And to take my time. I dont know how to raise a kid, I cant be a mom. I havent even lived any of my life, I havent even been to prom. This is a win/lose situation, There are going to be ups and downs. We are going to start planing, Start setting our grounds. So, I have 9 months to think, But no matter what, I will have this child, And with me he will live in our rut. This was my creation, That I can not fake. This baby is many things, But not a mistake.

I love your soft kisses. I love your soft touch. I love the way you bite your lip. I love you soooooo much. I love the way you look at me. I love the way you smile. I love the way you're shy sometimes, Every once and a while. I love it when you look at me, When I'm not looking at you. You think I do not realize it, But really...I do. I love the way you cuddle. I love the way you sleep. I love the way you rub your neck, when you are thinking so deep. I love all of you, Your nose, your lips, your eyes, your feet. I will never stop loving you. You are so amazingly sweet. I love that I love you. I have loved you from the very start. I LOVE ALL OF YOU, I now hand you the key to my heart.

Like a thief, unexpectedly you robbed me No more coldness within my heart You changed it from dirty stone Into a beautiful piece of art To passion I had no vision But you kissed my eyes and let me see Another part of my rigid being You so graciously set free Emotions which I found foreign, Seem to be a second language today You taught me how to speak them Within my heart they'll stay Like a thief, unexpectedly you robbed me Stole my heart without a peep I thank you for being so silent My heart you shall keep

Sometimes we argue, I don't know why. Then I sit and wonder, why do I cry? I cry because I love you, I cry because I care, I cry because I feel we have a love so rare, sometimes I'm afraid I'll turn around and you won't be there. I love you every minute, I love you every day, I even love you when we argue, I love you when we play. Sometimes I've wondered do you love me too, then I look in your eyes and I know it's true. So when I say something a little crazy or I do something you don't feel is right, Please, let's try to work it out so we won't fight. Some people take relationships for granted it's sad to hear but true, I don't want this to happen, not with you. I want our relationship to be completely from the heart so we both know, no matter what we go through we will never part.

For the longest time Have I longed to touch thy face To kiss thy beautiful lips And feel the warmth of thine embrace. For the longest time Have I longed to hold thee near And whisper sweet caresses From my mouth into your ears. For the longest time Have I longed to sing out loud Of the passion that I'll feel When we dance beneath the clouds. For the longest time Have I longed to be with thee To join my heart with your soul Until you're the greatest part of me. For the longest time Will you and I be together Until our fantasies have become realities And our spirits have become one forever.

I love you more than all the stars in the sky. I love you more as each moment passes us by. I love you more with every breath I take. I love you more with each promise we make. I need you like a flower needs the rain. I need you for you can wash away my pain. I need you more each day I need you for you are so wonderful, in every single way. I miss you more than ever now. I miss you because I really need you somehow. I miss you and your touch. I miss you for to me, you mean so much. I want you to caress my lips the way you always do. I want you to look into my eyes and see my love for you. I want you to hold me close to your heart. I want you to know that I love you, need you, miss you, and want you And I have for every single moment, right from the start.

If loving you is wrong Then my heart knows not what is right I cry myself to sleep Every second of the night What is there to do? What is there to say? I know I can't have you But still I give my heart away I’d walk a thousand miles And cry a thousand tears Just to know your love Will be waiting for me But what is there to feel? When you don’t feel the same? I know I can’t have you But still I give my love away You are my dream come true I wished upon a star for you But what am I to know? If you really love me so I know I can’t have you But still I give myself away

Why can't I speak when I have so much to tell? Why can't I write when I have so much in mind? Why can't I sing when there's music in my heart? Why can't I dance when there's rythm in the air? Too many words left unspoken Too many things left undone Why can't it be and why can't I? For all I know this pain deep inside Took the gladness from my heart. Is this the pain of missing you? Is this the reason behind it all? Hear the agony of my heart Longing for you and for your touch Feeling your lips, feeling your face Missing your kisses and warm embrace. When will the waiting ever be over? For as long as were apart I can never be whole Oh! My Dearest Love I just want you to know That my heart is aching because "I'M MISSING YOU!"

What would I do if you leave? I'd miss you, I believe That's what I'd do if you leave Emotions are kept under my sleeve So my prayers to you I'd give Please stay a bit longer For I may see you again never And you leaving isn't for the better Surely I'd miss you sooner or later Everyday I miss you more and more It makes my heart feel so sore Thinking of the way things were, I'd like to go back to the times we had before.

I awake each day with a smile And greet it with a laugh; The world is a treasure to me Because of you. Every time I think of something sad, I replace the thought- with you! My mind is instantly changed And my heart is filled with gladness. Every breath I take is meant for you, I live this life surrounded in joy And I bathe in the promise of your love, My soul belongs to you. Each time I see something beautiful I want to take it and bring it to you; My life has so much meaning now All because of you.