Ditte Never expect anything from anyone...'s blog: "Poems and songs I made"

CRIPPLED. HATE I can’t hate. I don’t understand how other can without feeling twice the pain they inflict inside. It’s a grueling feeling. My fangs were ripped off at birth. SORROW A crippled feeling. You can’t do anything to stop the flowing pain that roams inside you. Not without destroying the feelings you had for the person you lost. LOVE Yet another crippled feeling. Either you hurt yourself, or you hurt another person. The happiness that defines love is only temporary and stops as soon as complications come. Never bend over to the wishes of sleeping forever. PAIN A feeling I don’t like. I feel it all the time though, as I’m still bound by those chains. Suicide is not an option. Open your heart to the light and this feeling will be gone forever… I see darkness everywhere. FEAR I fear a lot of things. Death is the least of it. I fear not being accepted. I feel crippled fear. Tears runs down my cheeks when I fear. I fear now. JOY A feeling, that for me doesn’t exist. Anything that reminds me of it is a short swirf of the good side of love. Joy can be that rush you get from drugs but I’m never gonna do them. Please help me open my eyes. Crippled feelings.

You might be DISGUSTED when you look at me. The way I walk with my head bowed down to let anyone STOMP on me if they wanna. The way I might STALK you or in other ways try to learn things about you without making you ANGRY or make you feel im too much. The way you LOOKED at me made me wish I was never BORN. I don't HATE you for the PAIN you inflict I can't HATE at all, you see. I let all the PAIN tear up my soul and HEART because nobody cares anyway. The reason I can't HATE even though I wanted to I really REGRET that day My fangs were ripped off at birth. You can call me anything you want but no matter what I'm an EMO in heart. Written the 3rd of September 2007.