I lived through some things I should not have and here I stand today broken and not even half the man I used to be. It’s been years since my first Traumatic Brain Injury and still my memory is terrible suffer debilitating migraines, and the seizures where I just blank out. The worse seizures I have had I can hear everything going on around me but I can’t really move or talk the sounds that come out my mouth are just moans, those times are hell cause I am trapped in my mind everything is pure panic. Now my moods are always fucked up I don’t even like being around people anymore. I take all the anti-seizure meds and now on anti-depressants and other pills I just feel like a freak. Why try and start over what woman in her right mind would want someone so fucked up hell I don’t even want me and I am myself! Still I feel like there is a light somewhere at the end of the tunnel and I keep hoping.