lava's blog: "new story"

well just making a statement about turning around and getting a new perspective.  I'll be paying more attention to my own stuff and taking total accountability for all that I do.  I figure if I can do this then I can make myself  or let myself make any changes I want.  I know I have to feel the changes from my heart to actuallt get past the mental stage   the intelectual stage.  I know I can do it   its just letting myself get back in total power.  It all seems so simple in theory, just getting past a lifetime of BSing myself    thats the fun part.  When I do let myself actually feel the changes I desire  it seems to happen like it was there all the time.  Just it is so "un guy like" to "feel"  without trying to fix or make some judgement.  Well the training wheels are back on an I see,  ie. feel    myself making some major changes   just because thats what feels right.