i know i have an angel, she looks out for me everyday, i can tell because of the things i have done, been in trouble so many times, i just want to thank her and give her my love, because she gave me strength to carry on, when there was nothing else to do, and now i see the things that i can be, she opened my eyes so i can see, that there really is something out there, i just have to reach out and grab it, for life can pass you by, and why wouldn`t you give it a try, all you have to do is take it as it comes, and give it the best that you got, ask god for the things that you need , and not the things you want, this is what i do almost everyday, and i am glad he is here to stay, and watch over me, to help and guide, me things through the rough times that i have, surrounds me with friends and family who cares, and sent me an angel to watch what i do, so this one is to god and his way of thinking, i just want to tell him thank you, for giving me all my blessings and people who care, and for always showing up and being there.

Lost my mind once again. Thinking about what will happen in my end. I want a better place for us all, it doesn't matter if I fall. Why cant we just see, what there is for us to be. I know I am going crazy, and yes sometimes I am lazy. Just want to find, someone that will be kind. To my heart and my soul, that is my final goal. I have searched for so long, where have I gone wrong. Why do I need to pour out, all of my heart? As if you will even, give me a start. Words cant say how I feel, I would even climb the biggest hill. You look like a lovely dove, and all I want to do is give you my love. So you tell me AM I IN LOVE?

Happiness is a place i am seldom at,even though it is hard for me to show that. I tend to always put up a wall, like when i get that certain call, from a friend . I haven't heard from in a while, bored to death, maybe I should walk a mile. You seem to think you know me, but you do really yeah and sometimes i do act a little silly. Know why because i like the smiles it brings, sleep on a bed that doesn`t have any springs. Not a lot of things in the world you can smile about, thats why i am always having so much doubt. Sometimes i wonder why i am here, maybe i should just go get me some beer. But what would that really solve, probably nothing, nothing at all. Yeah go ahead and tell me i think too much, don't really even know how to touch. The people around me who really care, even though i do know they are always there. Through all the good times and the bad, thats what really makes me sad. The wall that I built needs to come down, should I burn it down to the ground. Don't always let my feelings show, but thats okay most of my friends already know. The way that i am, and the things that i do, aren't always revolved around you. The bricks in my wall are beginning to break, these are my own words , nothing else to actually take. For granted except myself and my friends, this is what helps to make my heart mend, thats why this one has come to an end!!

Why do I bother.
What is there to gain.
I like having friends and being around people.
Ever feel like its not enough.
NO matter how hard you try, your best isn`t enough.
I am tired and old.
I want the people around me happy.
Yeah I like my life,sometimes its not enough.
Laughing makes me happy, and yes i do cry.
When I get down, I pick myself back up.
Why because thats all I know to do.
Tell me just this one thing!
Am I the only one thats does get ENOUGH.

I don`t know why I bottle it up inside, I really don`t have a place I can hide. Writing all this down to let it out, even though I have no idea.... what it is all about? Angry at myself for letting people push me around, Yeah I wish I were six feet in the ground. That way I would just be rid of myself, then you can put me on my own shelf. You think you know me, but do you really? The way that sometimes I can be silly. That is just me on the surface... You cant see all the anger and pain inside, that is all the bad stuff that I hide. You want to know me, then walk in my shoes, then you will know why I always have the blues. That is why sometimes I cant sleep, then there are times when my mind gets so deep. Why do i feel like a doormat? Sometimes you make me feel like that. Sorry that I never told you so, is it time for me to just go? Get as far away from you as I can, maybe I will find the real man. The one that has been bottled up inside, and the one that no longer wants to hide.

Its always hard to take, when you say for heaven`s sake. My life has been great, even though it is too late. Haven`t done all that is right, sometimes hard for me to see the light. I would do what I know is good, if only that I could. See I have seen too much in my past, never have found a love that would last. that is why I am always so sad, thinking about what I could have had! Yes I think of you everyday, I wish you didn`t go away. There are so many things I didn`t say, like please honey wont you stay. So sorry that I hurt you, and now I don`t know what to do. I have seen the pain in your eyes, and I know you have seen bluer skys. I didn`t mean to make you cry, hope you can forgive this desperate guy. Because I could never tell you why, I just wanted it to be, you and I! So please forgive me, for it is so hard for me to see. The love that you and I live, is all that you can ever give!!!!

Contradiction,Manipulation,Frustration Yet I am still with you, even through the bad things you do. Depression, Aggression, Confusion You always bring me down, yet you still want me around. Deception, Intoxication,Obsession Why do I even attempt to try, when all you do is make me cry. Unhappy,Insecure,Immature These are the things that I see, deep down and stuck inside of me.

just brightens my day wheneven shes around

u make me feel all squishy inside

loves to please everyone around her

excites and entices all the guys

special to me and to many others

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