angie's blog: "New light on life"

For those of you that do not know, In Sept.2006 I lost my first grandson to SIDDS. I have created a guestbook in MEMORY of our Jordan on my profile. If you would be so kind as to help us keep his spirit alive and let the world know that we will fight to find a cure for this unforgiving, unknown, death of kids. OUR KIDS! I would appreciate it very much. Just click on the link below the guestbook that says SIGN THIS GUESTBOOK, and follow the instructions. Love you all. God Bless, Angie

Well, today started out great ! I got up this morning and was drinking my coffee, so i decided to sit a little bit and get some stuff done on Cherrytap. I got to talking to one of the guys I invited and all was doing good.But one major problem..........I opened my mouth. I had been talking to him all day on yahoo when I should have caught on to something very important in his life. His wife was killed in a auto accident and son was put in a wheel chair from it. All day he had been giving hints that his wife died but, I did not get it until the dreadful question came out of my mind and through my fingers. "Do you and your ex still talk?" OMG how horrible do I feel for being so freakin stupid. I should have caught on but didn't. It showed in the song he pick for his video on profile, In the conversation a few times before that and I was to stupid to realize what he was saying without just coming out and saying it.........I AM A DUMB ASS! If I could ever take back words, I would take back the question that I asked him. I know that I brought up a very hard subject for him to talk about and I am totally overwhelmed with a quilty feeling for not catching on. Make note to self...........IN FUTURE..........REALLY DO NOT PRY INTO OTHER PEOPLE SHIT ! YOU NEVER KNOW WHAT IS GONNA COME OUT OF IT AND IF YOU DO THEN REALLY BE CAREFUL AND MAKE SURE THAT YOU HAVE THE FACTS STRAIGHT! As for him well he said that it was not biggie but, if you end up reading this......I want you to know how truely sorry I am for over stepping my boundries.

As the Holiday Season has come and gone, I realize more and more that Life is what you make of it. Therefore I am putting my life into a new Light! I am going to wake each morning not wondering what is gonna go wrong today but, take my days as they come and at night I am not going to wonder how come something has happened the way it has but, thank God for the another day lived ! I have lived my life always coming down on myself and I refuse to do this any longer. Each day I am gonna wake and tell myself not to be so hard on my self. I will put on my smile and wear it proudly instead of wearing it to cover up how I truely feel. My Life is precious and priceless. I have wasted to much time on dwelling on the things that hurt from other people in my Life. I have always been put down by the type of people that I chose to hang with and I have given it a long hard thought and moved ! I am in a new area to start my wonderful fresh Life and I will do everything possible to make my Life Beautiful !