When a smile cost me too much
And the heartbreak was all I could bare
When I was broken and out of touch
And I needed someone to be there
When I had given up the fight
And I was just trying to make it through
I took the biggest chance that night
Thats the night that I first met you
Unexpectedly I fell very fast from the start
Learning once again how to take each step
You touched some barren part of my heart
You grabbed my heart and away I was swept
It took just a second of looking at you to know
That I had found something genuine and true
And when you look in my eyes it shows
And I begin to fall anew
Its amazing the things that you will find
When you turn away and stop the quest
I guess it must all be in our minds
And when the truth comes you find real happiness.
So I end this little note
And I'll seal it with all my heart
And I guess that was all she wrote
Cause in this end, she has found her new start...
This emptiness in me
Is like a black hole
Consuming
Devouring
Eating me whole
This sadness I carry
Is weighing me down
Dragging
Draining
Pulling me into the ground
This pain that is within me
Feels as sharp as a blade
Cutting
Wrenching
Blood pooled and decayed
These thoughts in my head
Are driving me insane
Twisting
Corrupting
Feasting like acid rain
Can anyone hear me
I scream as loud as I can
Pleading
Crying
Reaching out for a hand
I want you to hurt like I do.
I want you to feel this pain.
I want you to bleed from the inside out.
And I want your tears to fall down like rain.
I want you to look in the mirror,
and despise the person that you see.
I want you to wake up in the middle of each night,
your arms reaching out for me.
I want you to feel so alone
and to wish for me to be where you are.
I want you to think back to the times
when you inflicted the worst of my scars.
I want you to face each day
with the knowledge that Im not there.
I want you to hurt so badly
that the pain you can no longer bare.
I want you to feel the way I feel
when I live through each and everyday.
I want you to feel things from my perspective
knowing that your future has gone away.
I want every second without me
to be like the worst pain in your soul.
I want you to feel these things
so Im not the only one who isnt whole.