Last night i had a dream. i dont know what to call it. whether it be bad or good. i was at like some sort of carnival. a guy i still love today, Matt, was there. it was a short dream but a big enough message to make me cry when i woke up. at that carnival he realized that he still wanted to be with me. and he hugged me. and we were together. he loved me once again. i was happy. like i once was with him. it really hurt when i woke up. because it wasnt real. im still crying as i write this now. god it hurts so much. i wish i could get him out of my thoughts. i have tried so hard. and now the dreams are coming. i dont know what to do.
