L J's blog: "My soapbox"

Who would have thought that night would have been so big in our lives...your glace from across the room the switching seats with your friend so you could sit next to me...yes I saw that. the 4 hours of conversation we had the hug at the end of the night (I wanted to kiss you so badly) the waiting to call you the next day F- the guy rules of waiting 3 days I wanted to hear your voice again...I wish I could take back those words I said to you in town that made you cry the whole way home(I don't want to start anything now) I broke your heart and I now it was teriable but I still had it... when I saw you again ...like butterflies in my stomache. So I said I love you and I ment it..and through all the sh- we've been delt in this life we have stuck it out...we are still together and our love is strong as ever through all of this you've been my rock..I don't know what would have happened without you ...and you know what I mean.. you save me everytime I thing life gets so hard..your all I need ..this life has meaning to it because of you, as I look up from my screen I look at your picture ...I still have them you know...the butterflies..... I can't wait to see you again.

Why is it when us men try to do something great for the family it turns out to be the hardest thing(having to leave them behind)I hate being away from my family but if you look at the record for how long I've been home in the last 3 years you'd think I didn't like being home. Don't get me wrong I can handle it but damn why do I do this to myself and the people around me? .....I guess I'm just as confused as the next guy...O-well. let me know if you have a clue why us guys do this type of sh-- ok.....

I just want to put out there,that theres no need to be sad for someone like me I'm a contrator over here in the stan making well into 6 figuers, but there are troops over here that get paid way less than me and are doing just a little bit more than me with a few more dangers and a lot less comforts. I ask yall to tank some of these great troops that have to be pulled from there family to come over here and do crap that nobody wants to do but has to be completed. so Thank a troop not by just sayin thanks and not much behinde it...mean it these men and women do this crap day in and day out and when someone says Thank You from the heart and mean it ....that means something to that troop. Trust me I know I did it for 12 years