Jupiter's blog: "My Rantings"

The biggest loser, one of my fav reality shows, is going to be at the mall i work at today and tomarrow! =D i am so excited haha. its kinda pathetic really. I'm like a kid in a candy store... but obviously not...lol i want to LOOSE weight! and i am. started my diet again today... can't work out for another week because of the surgery type thing i went through... but i cant wait to get back to my gym! =D I've got an online journal with a friend tracking everything... damnit, i am going to just take time to work on myself this year. F* boys. lol. no offense! But i have no intentions whatsoever of having a relationship. maybe some dates. but nothing serious. i need to get my grades up to par, and work on myself. i am so excited! I aint going today, but i am leaving work an hour early tomarrow to go spend some time with the past contestants and what not! yay!!!!

Seriously, what is wrong with people? I am f-ing sick of getting IM's and shit saying "I'd fuck your brains out" or "holy fuck you have nice tits, wanna try anal?" SERIOUSLY GUYS, how many girls actually get EXCITED that you say that... who you DONT have to pay off?! Lets get this straight: I am NOT a whore I am NOT here for sex Infact, fuck i dont WANT sex untill i find the right guy. I am tierd of the guys i DO have sex with, dumping me for some stupid chick. I am not a sex toy. I value and respect my body, and if you dont thats your own damn problem. Another thing, i am 19!! I KNOW i am legal now, but that dosent mean i am looking for some 40+ desperate man!!!! Believe it or not, i am actually looking for someone SWEET...and when i first signed up on here it wasent like an adult pub. the pub thing was like its second phase or whatever. lostcherry was it at first. Needless to say i have meet SOME decent people on here. I am just fed UP with these assholes trying to get in my pants. If you are on an ONLINE bar trying to pick up woman... i'm sorry...but thats lower than going to a real bar... i mean fuck, the person you are talking to could be a 50+ man living in his mothers basement eating a bucket of fried chicken smothered in mayo with the lights turned off... -shivers- fuck that shit.

single again... long story...dont want to talk about it... i hate men sometimes... i want to find a guy who when he tells me is wants a long term relationship, he means it... im sick of being used as a temporary bitch... fuck

So lately i have realized that half my friends are pregnant. Its so weird to know... My best friend whom i've known since 6th grade is 8 months pregnant... I just can hardly imagine it! Maybe thats cause i am not there... and i know that i am young, i am only 19. I dont have the best job, and i dont have good motivation for school, but in my heart i just want to settle down with a family. I want a baby... I dont know why. I NEVER wanted a kid; and recently in the past few months i just really want one. I want to move out, and be with a guy who actually plans on being with me. Who treats me like a girlfriend and not like a friend. Chris just isnt doing that. I dont feel like he wants to put much effort into us. And i dont feel like he loves me very much. Not to mention chris was put in school a year late... so he still has another year of high school to go through, while i am in my second year of college... I mean, idk... i kind of want a guy who KNOWS what he wants in life. And wants to start a family within the next couple of years. I just seem to have the worst luck with men =/ Maybe one day it will turn around. blah...

Would you makeout with me? [ ]Hell Yea [ ]Yes [ ]No [ ]Maybe [ ]already have ;) Would you sleep with me? [ ]In an instant! [ ]Yes [ ]No [ ]Maybe Am I attractive? [ ]Eff no! [ ] Hot as hell [ ]Fine [ ]Cute [ ]Okay [ ]Beautiful Do you think I'm a virgin? [ ]Yes [ ]No Are you a virgin? [ ]yes [ ]no I look like.. [ ] A player [ ] a wife/husband [ ] One time thing [ ] Next bf/gf [ ] A friend [ ] A friend with benefits [ ] A possibility [ ] A loser [ ] A studmuffin If you saw me for the first time would you talk to me? [ ] Yes [ ]No [ ]maybe Would you rather.. ?? [choose what you'd do!] [ ] Hook up with me [ ] Cuddle with me [ ] Date me [ ] Friends [ ] Friends with benefits [ ] Marry me [ ] Have sex [ ] OTHER (give details) On a scale of 1-10 (10 being the highest), rate me.. [ ]1 [ ]2 [ ]3 [ ]4 [ ]5 [ ]6 [ ]7 [ ]8 [ ]9 [ ]10 What would you want me to be to you? [ ] Friend [ ] Girlfriend/Boyfriend [ ] Friend with benefits [ ] Husband/Wife Would you give me a lap dance? [ ]Hell Yea [ ]Yes [ ]No [ ]Maybe Would you come to my house and do nothing but chil or what would we do? [ ]Yes [ ]No [ ]That's it?[ ]other:_________ Could you just be friends with me? []Yes [ ]No Would you party with me? [ ]Yes [ ]No Would you do totally random shit with me? [ ]Yes [ ]No Are you going to repost this so i can answer for you? [ ]Yes [ ]No Send the results to me in a message, don't be afraid to tell me what you really think. Boys repost this as: GIRLS ONLY Girls repost this as: GUYS ONLY AND YOU HAVE TO REPOST, EVEN IF YOU'RE TAKEN

So yeah, Besides my friend Cara singing me about 25 songs (lol i love her) i want a variety in my voice comments... so i suggest you all call me!!! lol. <3 love me? And dont worry, it's FREE!! I wouldent put it up if it wasent (i never buy anything offline)

So i was walking to my car after work last night... and i saw the back with all my random bumper stickers... and i thought to myself it is ironic i work in a Maturnity store, and deal with pregnant ladies every day... yet i have a pro-abortion sticker on the back, that seems to start fights with alot of people. le-hmmmm. Anyway... i open today by myself for the first time... thought hopefully it's gonna be SLOOOWWWWW. I am still half asleep cause i coudlent fall asleep last night. =/ I need a MAN to cuddle with. boo hiss. i'm off to dry off, and head to work... =/ 1:30 come soon!

I am tierd of being lied to... i hate being heartbroken

I just thought it was funny, everytime i get a low photo rating like a 2 or a 3, when i click to see which photo, thinking its amazing people can find others THAT repulsive, i notice the picture is always of my boyfriend.

i think i sense jealousy in some people =P

It honestly makes me laugh. Though i am sure if he had his own, he'd have woman wanting his cute booty all the time.

EDIT!: So i get alot of low ratings myself, but i've seen some of the ugliest "woman" on here, and they are getting like all 10's... are people just tryign to be nice? I seriously just saw a woman who looked like a scary ass butch man... wtf is up with that? this site's kinda retarted. And i HATE how they compare themselves to myspace. Becuase this site and Myspace are two totally differnt websites with two wayyy differnt concepts. grr i am frustrated

life this past week has been dull beyong dull. And for some strange reason i just got an urge to watch the labryinth... hmmmm Anyway. I havent seen my boyfriend all week... i'm seriously going insane without him. I miss the warmth of his touch and how much i smile when he is near me. I know i write about him alot on here... but i cant really write about it any where else. Alot of my friends get annoyed with people talking about relationships because they arent in one... I really do need him. I call him any free chance i get. I have trouble at night sleeping without him by my side. I get to see him tomarrow. I may even leave class early to drive over there and jump on him. Well no i wont do that, he fell off his ATV and is in a neck brace.... but i cannot wait to kiss him again!!! But after tomarrow... i dont think i will see him untill tuesday u_u -cries- i hate work...