All 4 The Zuki's blog: "My Poetry"

Every waking moment I think about you all the time Dreaming of the day we’re together again I know we’ll do just fine Having you here with me again is a thought that makes me feel so good Our growing relationship feels so right showing each other we care the way we should I promise I will do my best to not make you want to leave every night I realize now how good you are to me I realize now that your love is worth the fight I never again want to be the one causing you any tears I always want to be there for you to ease all your pain and fears You are that special someone in my life I feel so very lucky to have you as my wife

The sands in the hourglass of time keep on flowing But the fire in both our lives seems to have stopped growing All these thoughts and feelings that I’m having right now Started long before we each took the vow I had a hard time showing you how I really feel I hope that with a little time your wounds I can heal We have both made mistakes I want to make things all right I know it will be very hard, it won’t happen over night I’m trying so very hard to learn from my past I’m dieing for your affection but it never seems to last Like the petals of a wilting rose pieces of my heart are falling Each night I spend away from you I curl up and start bawling Right now I feel so weak, like I just want to die The thought losing you forever makes me really cry Like the waves of an ocean beating on the sandy shore My heart will always beat for you till it will beat no more We have such a great plan a goal for our life I really want you with me forever as my wife With everything that I say and do, I hope that you see How much you really mean to me

she is so amazingly beautiful i just cant touch her enough no longer does she want to be touched and emotionally its tough i took her affections for grantid when she did pour it on so thick back then i returned very little, thinking about it makes me feel sick i now know how she felt when i practically ignored her i hate the way it feels and she did too im sure the more love i have in my heart the more pain i have to endure the only thing that can help me is her touch, i know its the cure every time she walks away i feel such a loneliness in my heart the emptiness completely surrounds me as long as we are apart upon her return i dream of the affection she may bring but it never happens, i never get any, not a thing

so many questions in my mind the answers are so hard to find i know the truth is really out there it's only one place and i know where locked is the vault where it is kept complete truth i can accept till that time possibilities are swirling so much confusion my head is twirling they say truth shall set you free i believe it will and want to see when it comes i will be at ease will this vault open, i'm begging, please

i just dont understand why all this is happening to me why everything went so wrong the reason i can not see i dont know what i did to deserve such a punishment all i did was love the angel i thought heaven sent i know i made a mistake but i learned from what i had done i would have given her everything, the moon, stars, even the sun she has made her mistakes and continues making them still i dont think she cares about anyone, life for her is just a thrill my life has been destroyed ive been striped of my family i hope that i can recover without losing my sanity no matter how hard i try to resist ill love her the rest of my life but she damaged my trust now she no longer will be my wife

she sits an arms reach away but yet she seems so far her beauty more radiant than the brightest shining star accepting all of my affections but truely desiring none i hope she knows in her heart that i believe she's the one my heart belongs to her and i always let her know if she has any affection for me it surely does not show she tells me with her words that she wants to be with me her words are lightly hollow and her actions never agree i remember the person i met full of love and desire her passion for me burned like the hottest roaring fire she would travel the furthest distance just so we could be near her words more warm and truthful than i ever did hear i truelly have no idea if she will ever be the same all the changes in her i feel i am partly to blame i know she has alot on her mind and i hope im am in there too she says she does love me and i really hope it's true i have given her my heart, she can break it or set it on fire she is the goddess of my world, my passion, my desire

lost in a maze with so many turns i see a guiding light, but out it burns there it is again, a beacon ever so small sometimes so tiny i can barely see it at all it's gone again so i wait for more i wait till it comes back to show me the door sometimes it's dim, sometimes it's bright but when it's not there it's black as a starless night it seems like an eternity waiting here alone i wait here so long for the path to be shone when i see this light i run so very fast praying i don't trip trying to reach the end at last it comes and it goes, very briefely it shines i hope soon it will be steady, showing me the signs i think i see it, yes, i see it glow its my baby's love showing me were to go now darkness falls and i cannot see i wonder how bright the next light will be

how i feel is not totaly clear unconditional love like a brand does sear with forgiveness just as abundant as pain but self conflict i feel like im going insane doubt and mistrust continue breeding inside your true feelings i feel you continue to hide your pain of guilt i wish my love could erase im sure your pain grows deeper when you look at my face on the continued pursuit elsewhere of your intamate needs the fire of my pain continuosly feeds know that my love can conquer my pain like an unwelcome drought can be conquered by rain a fireocious battle, my love cannot win as long as your path leads you to this sin though my battered love has survived this long night your love in my corner will win this fight

here it is again i find myself all alone where i will find love is totaly unknown empty inside with no one to share my life not terribly upset that i have left my unfaithful wife where will i look who is it that will i find a treasure hiding deep hopfully a heart so kind a purelly truthful soul and a lie never told a person truelly sincere with a heart of gold my lonelieness ever so binding i wait for my release when i find the one the i hope pain will sudenly cease with the the next one i hope i can tell whether she is good or a spawn from hell

i work so hard because i love her, for what, nothing all i need is just a little bit, just a piece, something my emptiness chilling like an arctic winter night she maintains her distance keeping me just barely in sight my affections unreturned her feelings untold for her love forever my soul i would have sold i rescue her many times but i feel im just a crutch but i just cant help myself, i love her too much i want her completely or nothing at all sometimes i wonder if i should just let her fall i probably never will, im just a sucker like that i wish i could be stronger than a dusty door mat