littlerunaway2005's blog: "MY POETRY BLOG"

To whom it may concern, I am sick and tired of losing those that I love, regardless of the prayers sent to Heaven with love. To whom it may concern, I do hurt and weep, I am not a doormat, don't wipe your feet upon me. To Whom it may concern, I am tired and weak, I can't stand again just to turn the other cheek. To whom it may concern, I never lied, nor stole, or did cheat. To whom it may concern, I am leaving this ugly world behind me, don't bother to cry for me, the only time any of you were there is when I wrapped my arms around you, held you in your moments of need.

My love can you see these tears falling from my eyes? They fall because I am missing you... I look to heaven and whisper the words I wish you knew. The words I should have said long ago to you. I would give anything to hold you once again... To tell you I love you more than just as friends. But your time came and to heaven you went. I never got to tell you that I enjoyed the time we spent. I never got to say I love you before you went away. I hope you can see the love in my tears, for I love you more than just friends. As do stars fall from the sky, let these tears fall from my eyes. They are a symbol of my eternal love. For the one I will soon join and give all my love to. My love, I can't wait to return to you. Eternity stole you away... But we'll love, together, someday.

She longs for his heartbeat to be beneath her ear, The sound of him breathing to kill the silence of the midnight air. Wants nothing more than to hold him near, For he has made the loneliness disappear. Yet the deep seeded fear of rejection shows it’s ugly rear, So she locks away the words she should speak to the one she holds dear. Only to find in time, That another has found the courage, And Spoke her heart and mind. Her chance passed her by. Through the tears she cries, She vows to speak her mind, Never again will a moment pass her by.

Too many hands in the pot, Too many lies have been told, No way to prove myself now, The final stone has been thrown; I knew deep down inside, That no matter how I loved him, Miles and lies would play a role. He now loves another. Although it hurts, The love I have for him Still remains and now this must be told. I will never see his face again, Never be able to touch and hold, The man I truly love, Because the lies and miles took their toll. I hope he finds joy in the love he now enfolds; I will keep our love in dreams and in, Stories never told.

How do I make you understand? How do I make you see? That everything he told you were lies that didn't come from me. Words I would never speak. Things I don't believe. They aren't even close to the feelings inside of me. How do I make you understand? How do I make you see? That he just didn't lie to you, He also lied to me. How do I make you understand? How do I make you see? That he told you nothing but lies, When you won't talk to me. Nothing but lies caused you to end the friendship, between you and me.

As I sit and think about you. I pray that one day you will see my love is true. My mind and heart are always filled with thoughts and dreams of you. I sit in sorrow because you don't believe the words I speak are true. Visions run through my mind of time spent with you. I replay the memories for a hint, sign or a clue, as to what could have brought on the feelings of doubt in you. I can't find a reason for the doubts to lingerer in you, I have tried to show my love to you in everything I say and do. Now you say you are leaving and that I have never loved you. Well Baby there is the door, as I have finally found the truth. You will not use me to hide the insecurities in you. The truth, finally I have the truth. One question still remains...Will you ever see the insecurities had nothing to do with me, it was all you.

Some say you don't exist, some say you do. She truly doesn't know what to believe, but in her time of need she is calling out to you. Her life may take a drastic turn because of an accident that happened in the bedroom. She may now be with child and doesn't know what to do. She spoke to who would be a father and he wants no part of the unborn child that could be within her womb. She is alone, Angry Frightened turning all over to you. As much as she has always wanted a child, she doesn't want one when one parent will look at it as a mistake. She doesn't want to have to explain why there is no Daddy around at bedtime, the holidays or sports games. Doesn't want to have to raise a child and have to explain why there is no one to give a card to on Father's Day. She know she can't support a child right now and may never be able to. Mentally she isn't strong enough to raise a child without a father to help her through. So as her tears fall and she remains on her knees calling out to you. Please know that in her heart all her faith still remains in you. Through her tears she prays: Lord, I don't know what I will do. Please don't give me a child now. Not when I believe that such a gift should be shared with the baby's Daddy too. I feel so weak, worried and knocked down all I have left in me is to come talk and to believe with all of my heart and faith. That you'll know what to do. She says Lord I'm calling out to you... Amen

I didn't know... When I think of him. I feel happy...I feel strong...I feel at peace. I didn't know... That the sound of his voice...of his laughter...of him breathing... Would put all my problems at ease. I didn't know... That he has taught me a little about the person I hope to grow to be. I didn't know... Until it was just me and no longer we. I didn't know... I wonder did he know?

I can tell you what makes me happy. But I can't tell you what's in my heart. I can tell you what makes me mad. But I can't tell you what's in my heart. I can tell you what makes me sad. But I can't tell you what's in my heart. I can tell you when I am confused. But I can't tell you what's in my heart. From day one, You told me not to feel it. If I tell you what's in my heart... you'll see it as wrong, and blow my world apart.