princessofthenite's blog: "my poems & songs"

Time,yes who don't it embrace Run if you think it will do any good Life's one big rat race anyway Still time will get you,jus like it should An enemies are just like dust We can let them be,or stir them up Hate if you need to,but then who can you trust? And the bigger question hangs apon your door Who could ever trust you?When actions and words Are all that we have,nothing less,nothing more In between the cradle to the grave Is every persons life line,a time line To leave their imprint,it's what we all crave Its a commen denominator,that draws us all together I choose to live in peace,in a world that has none I control the animal withen,the beast that strives To take down others,so as to feel that I have won A higher spot for my imprint to be placed That's jus no way for me to run this rat race -2007-Alexis Landry

I wish I could take back the things I said today Instead of saying"I love you",I wished you dead I'm scared,to think those words could be my last to you I'm so afraid mom,and I'm crying for you I'm a big girl at 18,but inside I never outgrew Your little girl mom,That's who I'll always be And please don't be mad,I know your car was new I swear I tried my best,to drive just like you Now it's wrapped around and twisted into a tree I'm still inside,and my belt wont come free I can hear voices mom,I think their angels You always said they would keep me safe and well You always said,don't ever drink and drive I never once did mom,yet I'm barly alive Cause the stranger that totalled your car Left the bar after drinking all day Our lives crossed paths when he drove my way He walked away without a scrach mom The jaws of life are still trying to disattach The wreakage of metal,off of me,your baby girl Be proud of me mom,keep your heart strong I was on my way home to say I was wrong You may never hear me say I'm sorry,but I'll try To send down my love,when you get sad and cry

Hey there pretty girl,I love to see you smile The sunshine can't compare to you And that grin that spreads a mile Your innocence shines brighter then new Turn that pretty smile loose on me Share the secrets of your wonderlust Give me a reason to beleive To let go again and trust I followed her till she came round She turned that pretty smile loose on me She shook her head,said no,it's upside down God blessed me with the ability to fool all who see A frown turned round,is just a pretty smile I swear I tried to love that crazy women Yet she fought me all the way She laughed and said she'd never let me in People live in color,she said"I live in gray", "Some hearts crack,others bleed, I can't give anymore then me I am beautifully broken,I am hurtful words unspoken" Then she turned that pretty smile loose on me again I gave the last of what I had,trying to set her free To reach her broken heart,I'd walk and endless mile God gave her the ability to fool me A frown turned round,is just her pretty smile ~2007~Alexis Landry~

I am broken on the inside With no desire to be fixed I am haunted by my past and Chased by a future I can’t outrun I hide from the sun, and I'm scared of the dark I live in a world that doesn’t fit The voices in my head scream to be heard Yet I suppress the desire to be loved Or seen, I want to disappear Yet I’m bigger then my jaded thoughts And I'm smaller then this life I’m a puzzle peice, in a world that doesn’t fit I am empty, yet I'm full of questions And I have no desire for answers I am lonely all the time, but only for myself With another’s arms around me I am safely wrapped in lies I wear this mask for the benefit Of a world that doesn’t fit Lex Landry-2007

This is me,stripped bare Jaded from the inside out an more This is me,but you don't fucking care There's my heart,broken on your floor There's my pride,walking out the door I'll never,I'll never,I'll never be the same I'll be bitter,bitchy,hateful every time I see you I'll make you hang your ugly head in shame Yeah this is me,after loving you And I've been taking for a ride or two I kissed alot of fucking frogs before I met you I thought that I saw the truth in your eyes Turns out you jus knew how to hide your lies I'll never,I'll never,I'll never be the same I'll be bitter,bitchy,hateful everytime I see you I'll make you hang your ugly head in shame Cause this is me,after loving you In loving spoonfuls,I swallowed what you put me though And yor weak lies,somehow kept me strong Now the end of us is over,moving on is hard to do, FOR YOU I'll be bitter,bichy,hateful,evrytime I see you I'll make you hang your ugly head in shame This is me,an I'm fucking over you Yeah this is me,stripped bare Jaded from the inside out an more -2007-Alexis Landry

I can finally breathe, I can finally be At peace with myself, and proud of my life I made it so far, with what little I knew Time has shown me, another way to grow Now I got the knowledge, to go all the way And I’m proud to say, that I’ll I had to do, was pray I asked for forgiveness, I asked for His hand To hold me up, when I knew I couldn’t stand I asked for higher strength, to help me fight addictions Though it all God stood by me, showed me a way outta sin And showed me how much I meant to him Now I can stand on solid ground, an I can do it on my own The only difference now, is that I’m never really alone When struggles come to light, I make the choice To pray to God, for Him to hear my voice And he knows this child’s cry; an I know it to be true Cause I can feel the presence of his hand, breaking though My troubles are mere stepping stones Cause now, I’m never really alone

Turn me, turn me inside out Subject me to the ugliness Teach me what my pains about Turn me, turn me inside out Tear away my shelter Make me feel, make me miss Long ago I dwelt here Now I’m twisted up n used I’m inside out, ohh inside out I never wanted I never needed I never wanted to be me I never wanted I never needed I never wanted to be me Turn me, turn me inside out I wanna be hidden, I wanna be seen Bring me back to life, ya teach me to shine Turn me, turn me inside out Take away my negativity, without destroying my soul I once believed in more then this It aint my fault the world has gone to shit I’m inside, ohh inside out I never wanted, I never needed I never wanted to be me I never wanted, I never needed I never wanted to be me -2007-Alexis Landry

I reach for you a 100 times a day I come away with faded images Of a life I couldn’t save And sometimes late at night I roam these empty halls As I pass your room, I hear the calls Of laughter, heavy on my mind Keep me in your heart baby boy An keep an eye on time Cause that’s what will bring us back At the end of this road you’ll find Sometimes life is hard to keep track of But it all comes round in time Every step I take, is a minute closer to you Every leap of faith shaves an hour off the clock If I keep on the steady, the days will be so few As water is to thirst you are my rock My soul soars above superficial pain Waiting for you is never in vain Keep me in your heart baby boy An keep an eye on time Cause that’s what will bring us back At the end of this road you’ll find Sometimes life is hard to keep track of But it all comes round in time I was a blueprint from the day I breathed To be your mother, without you here It hurts, but that’s not why I grieve I lost life’s wheel, I'm unable to steer time in my direction