Cletus bassist 4 life Stars real life hu...'s blog: "my poems/lyrics"

There you are my beloved one, Can you hear me my dearest Can you understand my coveted Will you understand my reason Do you understand my riddles Do you know I care I play my games to protect you From the world and myself I cannot truly love you No matter how much I care I would end up hurting you I would hurt myself for you I would try to hate you I would use you again Do you understand my riddles Do you know I care I would try to keep you Never would I sleep Forever I would hide you From yourself and the world Do you understand my riddles Do you know I care It pains me to love you Knowing I’ll never be able to care It haunts me to see you so Blissfully ignorant and unaware Upon sacred lines I let you tread Too close I let you approach This distance I must keep you This weight I must bare I would end up hurting you I would hurt myself for you I would try to hate you I would use you again Do you understand my riddles Do you know I care

Break forth this grand spectacle For it is time to look at the mirror And face the beast within A twisted soul so long ago Lost its very basic humanity Frightened, lonely, vengeful, lost Wanting, Hating, craving, relating Give a toast to the beast, Tonight’s spectacle has promise Two lives live in this body And one shall die tonight Frightened, lonely, vengeful, lost Wanting, Hating, craving, relating And when you taste your own flesh, You know the beast has won for now Frightened, lonely, vengeful, lost Wanting, Hating, craving, relating And in droves the public gathers, Sadist, gladiators, mothers and lovers, As an open theatrical mastication Will keep their boredom at bay Frightened, lonely, vengeful, lost Wanting, Hating, craving, relating And may you pick up a souvenir, A shred of dignity smoldering in the breeze Like an incense to cover the smell Covering the stench of your own shame Frightened, lonely, vengeful, lost Wanting, Hating, craving, relating And when you taste your own flesh, You know the you have won for now Frightened, lonely, vengeful, lost Wanting, Hating, craving, relating

Here lies nothing, A wretched black void Ringed with whiskey and herbs A decaying mindset of delusional defaults, Of burned out ambitions, Parannoid curage. The masochist is in the mirror laughing, I cut myself on the shards..... At leasr the veins still have red blood, To stain my existance in a joyous hate, My curse is my life...

I cant recall whats under this scarred face, Can't even believe love flowed thru these veins, Born upon this pyre is a burning hate, One unrequited desire I cannot face, measures I will take, prevent this reaccuring taste, Tightly I defend, where did it begin, Staive off this demand, Protect blood stained hands, And condemned this man Breathe dead air, arteries I tear, Never will I care..... In solatude I resign

Forever you claim this for we Forever you will never be Faith and trust and sanctity you scream Deciet is all you weave Lie for a Lie is your creed Love only one can never be I trusted you, shame on me LIAR, LIAR Hate before the dictionary reads Hate for your lust, I did feed Such thin skin for a shallow heart I can't let you back in, cannot restart LIAR, LIAR YOU FUCKING LIAR, LIAR Forever I leave you to your hell Forever I carry your lessons well you, you you LIAR, LIAR CHEATING LIAR, YOU FUCKING LIAR Never again

Shut it down..feed ....full....now, I can't taste this tri folded, trifulling bloodstained slit down on my wrist, Feel so cold...here....pulse slows.....stops, My void is where I keep your name, My hope is locked there as well, Can't you just shallow it, The burn is eternal, Can't you just shallow, The calm is disturbing as well,

I open my eyes to whats around me, Slipping away I can't define, Dark, cold, numb but feeling, Nothing is here but me..... Tearing apart another another worlds remains to kill the pain again from deep within, Show me the way out of here, I don't know the way to reality, Falling through the mist of dreams, Is it dreams or the nightmare of life, No one is there when I cry out load, Echos of the past plague me, Answers stay out of grasp, Nothing is there to cling to, A void that is my mind.... A void that is my existance.... A void that is my life.... A void that I try to avoid....

Broken ends all around me, Lying on the floor, bleeding and twitching, My nerves don't work, I can't feel, But something about this seems so unreal, I would cry but I've lost my tear spout, Would run away but lost my senses, Lost all but the sixth, so scared and forgoten, My days are hot and the nights grow long, Tired of live a lie thats much to strange, Tired of bleeding from wounds of decay, Pull the plug and let me expire, I've suffered enough in my lie, all in vain, You're inhuman keeping me alive like this, Why can't you hear me, Why can't I scream, Is this hell, thought it was hotter, Not cold and lonely like this, You can talk but I can't answer, What have I done to deserve this, This darken hell of a life trapted inside myself, My thoughts are real, though useless to me, Just like I'm useless to anyone, One step from death

Gave into this, Justone last time. Breaking again, the past holds strong, To carry this closure once more, My beutiful, This hatred, this silience, my love, Disuaded Entralled and torn discouaged from the truth, Allways blind to your urse, To carry this closure once more, My beutiful, This hatred, this silience, my love, Disuaded And in this movement that destroys us now And this pain that protects us here, To carry this closure once more, My beutiful, This hatred, this silience, my love, never again