Devil Witch aka Adopt A Soldier's blog: "My personal life things"

wow, i cant beleive how hard this has hit me. I have only been here in texas at ft. sam for 4 days. Im here for more advanced training as i go for my flight paramedic specalist. and wow. I am just thinking now, how much i miss my family. I was all happy to be comming down here, and now i have only been here for 4 days, and already missing my family back home. I have also not been talking to a lot of you here on tap, and im sorry, just i have been very busy with all my training. I did pass my finals for the EMT-B part. Well till next time i post, if i talk to you i talk to you. so if you see me online, send me a shout!!! And just remember that i love ya all, you are all my best of best friends. till next time. Bonnie

ok need a place to vent and this is were. Well there was a certain someone that well ya a connection was starting to be made. however well hell, i go info one thing, and see that a friend of mine is in possible critical condition. and well this certain someone desides that they are going to yell at me on the phone. WTF. This is a friend that might be hurt. And wow they dont care. well fuck you to. your just one of the haters. You should know me enough by now i dont but up with that bull shit. So fuck off!!!

OK, Here i go again. This time, Well read more and you will see. Ok, first off i never thought in believing in horescopes. i thought they were useless. But well the past few days. Well here they are. And yes They dont lie cause this has happend to me in the last couple days. daily horescope 4-20-2007 You thought all these electronic gadgets were here to save time. Who knew IM could be so helpful in making an emotional connection, too? It's amazing what comes to light when you're really communicating *this is so true and the person should know who they are. Daily horescope 4-21-2007 You've always understood the importance of following your own heart, but someone else's comment makes you realize the long-reaching impact of your behavior. How eye opening! *This is also true. And the Bitch that i though was my best friend. Well hell with her. Just cant wait to talk to her again. ------------------------------------------------- I will be leaving for a few days, might be on from time to time, if i dont leave for good. And to one particular person this fallowing is for you. I bind you jay from doing harm to others and to yourself. For you are worth more than you think. There for i leave it in perfect love and perfect trust, that you be here by binded from harming others and yourself. I love you, that is why i did the spell.

ok, first off i cant beleive im writting this, But i need to get it out. Things in my life have made it to the point of giving up in life, and letting my parents take my child. I joined the military to make myself stronger inside. On some ends it has. However with being a single parent, and being engaged to someone at the time, who is currently serving in iraq, and they proposed to you on v-day. then a month later tell you that they never loved you, never did and never will. Its fucked up in my opion. As a matter of fact it was to the pt, were no contact orders were about to be placed. However, a letter came in the mail that was written at the beginning of the month, that made a turn, to forgive and forget. The past few days I have not been on tap or anything for that matter. I was more less in hidding. Didnt want to be spoken to, or anything. I just wanted to end life right then and there. I finally came got enough strenght to right the "its over" letter. This was due to the lack of not reciveing letters for two months straight, and not even getting a simple how are you. when they were online at least once a day. Yes my heart was broken and the pain is there only life goes on. There is however a certain someone I meet the other day. This person has made me smile and think more of life. This I Thank him for. I dont really know how to say it. But, Im starting to feel a possible connection between this certain someone (they may already know who they are) I just dont know how to tell them. Ok enough for now, stay tuned for more news!!!! To this person I love you for who you are, and there is no one that can change you.

THIS FUCKER WILL NOT LEAVE ME ALONE Current mood: aggravated THIS LITTLE FUCKER WILL NOT GET THE POINT, I WANT NOTHING TO DO WITH HIM. I BLOCK HIM FROM ONE THING AND REMOVE HIM FROM THE OTHER. THEN SOME HOW HE FINDS A WAY TO GET TO ME AND HARASS ME. WFT. THEN HE TRYS TO THREATEN MY LIFE, WHEN I DID NOTHING WRONG. WHAT THE HELL. HE CLAIMS IM PLOTTING REVENGE ON HIS ASS WITH HIS SO CALLED FAMILY? NEWS FLASH YA LITTLE FUCK, THEY ARE NOT YOUR FAMILY, AND I QUOTE UNQUOTE YOU SAYING WHEN WE WERE TOGETHER AT THE TIME "I HAVE NO FAMILY". SO QUITE TRYING TO HUNT ME DOWN. I AM HAVING PAPERS DRAWIN UP, AND IF SO AS TO SO TRY ONE MORE FUCKING THING, YOUR ASS IS MINE, AND THEN YOU WILL KNOW WHAT REAL FUCKING REVENGE IS. ITS A LOT HARDER IN MILITARY COURT THEN IN REAL COURT. SO LEAVE MY FRIENDS, AND MY FAMILY ALONE. AND QUITE TRYING TO SAY THAT IM NOT RELATED TO THEM, WHEN I HAVE ALL THE PROOF I HAVE. ITS CALLED A FAMILY TREE. OH WAIT, I FORGOT YOU HAVE NO FAMILY, CAUSE YOU RAN AWAY FROM HOME, CAUSE YOU THOUGHT YOU OWNED THE WORLD, AND COULD GET THREW LIFE THINKING YOU COULD HAVE EVERYTHING YOUR WAY. PLEASE FEEL FREE TO LEAVE A COMMENT ON THIS

As a wake up from a nap, I sit here pondering over what to do. Part of me is saying give him a second chance, another saying let him go, you dont need the drama. I wonder why he did what he did. There are things i did that didnt help, But cant one forgive and forget? Im stuck with wondering if i give in, And give a second chance. Will i be burned again? Or will it all work out? You never know what life has comming your way, Things my be good, or even bad. But what is one to do? Bonnie Marie Adams Copyright ©2007 Bonnie Marie Adams This is my work. If you would like to veiw more of the poety i have done please contact me and i will provide you with the information on how you can. I take pride in my peorty, for i have won Editors Choice 5 Years in a row, for maltiple poems i have written.