so one of my last blogs was unmarried and no kids at the age of 23. Well I am not 24 with a 10 week old baby girl whom I love more deeply than i could ever imagine.
Last year around this time I got back with my ex fiance- and in the couple months we were back together.. he wrecked my car... got me pregnant and left me while I was still pregnant. while I was pregnant my dad had to get a pace maker in.. my uncle was diagnosed with cancer.. and went through a life threatning procedure that he made it through.. My great aunt died. Just a whole lot of crap went down.
Dec 3rd rolls around and the most incredible gift to my life occured I had my baby.. She is my everything and I hope to provide for her the best I can for being a single mom.. Hope she knows how much I love her and everything I do.. I do for her!! But the problem is now.. I work 2 jobs.. work 7 days a week.. and work 5+ hours a day.. so thats time away from her..
Granted my parents help but they throw this guilt trip on me.. Which sucks and breaks my heart into 2..
I feel like I am trying so hard and its getting me no where!!
I am a sweet person.. I give all I can to everyone that I truly treasure and care for.. I mean I am giving .. I would give my last dollar if I knew it would help them out in the long run.. and I am going to shut up.. cause now I am just bitchen and it in the end it does not really matter!!