Sweet troubled Soul gone's blog: "My first Blog: By Fisher Price"

a freind of mine asked me several times... why i let myself open to hurt and dissappointment with the guys on here... I didnt have an answer for him Now I DO... Im outta here.... after last nite and getting my emotional ASS KICKED yet again.... Im deleting The ones who have known me and stuck around..... Have my yahoo and can contact me there... The one i dont know well enuf to give it to them.. sorry... But "EnviroMan" left me wanting to pack up my feelings and get the FUCK out of dodge so.. im SURE no one really cares... expect the very choosen few... But I thot i would let ya know.

Just got a position for a customer relations coordinator for a 3 month temp basis. Not perfect, not long term and not allot of money... but its something....something to build on.... so... yay me i guess... lol

I did that morph thing that ppl have to see if they look like a celebrity.. dont know if it worked...

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Im not sure if everyone knows...(or anyone cares..lol).. but ive had a hard few months. A freind of mine decided to be a lil angel and give me a free months subscription to NetFlicks since he knew i like movies and he thot it would be fun. I had wanted NF before... but couldnt afford it.... NOW.. as soon as i can.... It will be the 1st thing on my to Get list.... This SHIT rocks!!! The person who thot of this is a Fucking GENIUS!!! Its basicaly like the biggest video store ON EARTH... But Online... It has EVERYTHING ( But porn... My one complaint... heehee).. and the plans are really not bad to afford ( if u have the extra money) They ship in a day and come individually so u can get more as u watch....I already have like 40 movies in my Want list.... I will so not be able to get thru them all.... But at least now i know what I'll be missing and want it back....LOL.. Motivation I guess... anyway.... I know this is stoopid... But i wanted to Just express how i Love "mother invention "and think it is Just the shiznit.... have a great day Peeples... off to watch My Movies... Kisses to those who deserve it... Celeste

Got married at 6 pm on Halloween 2004...... Lovely cermony.... Hubby helped plan it.....allot...(maybe more than a stright man should LOL),,,, We had a very small budget beacsue my Dad is a cheap jew... but we made it work.... I have pics if anyone cares.... But i tho i'd say i may not be on today allot.... Im gonna be hanging with the spouse.... Celeste

I am a very open minded person... I have a husband who is very ok with me having "special freinds" online( yahoo ,here, the phone... ).... I am very loving and understanding, I am a strong and soulful woman... all i ask in return is someone who RESPECTS strong women and doesnt lie... has the time to get to know me... says what they mean... do what they say... and not rush things....I am VERY good to ppl who are good to me.... ppl that find my profile interesting... that may want to get to know me beyond my pics.... and not just sexually.... but also GENUINLY are interested in having a real connection...something to enhance their standing IRL relationship or keep them sane while they are on the dating scene... someone who will not leave me after a few days... but want me as a part of their life in ADDITION to their off-line life.... Guess the next step is u to whoever is ready for me...

More to be added at a later date.. but to start:: 1. I am from NY but dont live there now... I have a slight east coast/NY accent 2. I hate stuffed animals and refused to wear pink unitll i was in my mid-20's 3.I am right handed but wear my watch on that hand as well 4. I broke my femur when i was 14 and was in traction for 6 weeks, and started HS in a wheelchair 5. I took Latin for 5 years, Romainian for 1 and Spanish for a few months 6. I can swear and make a few sentences in sign language 7. Im scared shitless of big spiders... but dont mind snakes... my Brother is the opposite 8. I used to cheat at Candyland when I was a little girl against my brother..heehee 9. My 1st word was MORE and my second was Chandelier 10.I've had some " paranormal" abilities since i was a small child 11. I used to be wiccan, was rasied a Jew and almost converted to Catholisism 12. i cant spell.. but my vocabulary is ecellent 13. I knew about a womans period before i knew about sex.. becasue i was such an advanced reader.. confused the shit out of me too 14. My birthday gift when i turned 9 was a trip to Lincoln Center to see Carmen 15.My birthday gift when i turned 16 was to see the broadway play " Jerome Robin's Broadway" 16. I lost my virginity when i was 18.. at the senior prom 17. when i was a kid... i sued to try and make my own shoes and made " toys" out of cardboard 18.I used to have 2 peking ducks we won at a fair named Fantasia and Feathers 19. I have a hampster, a dog and a cat 20. I used to model from the time i was 3 (mostly locally only)

I have always belived that " Everything happens for a reason" Lately tho.... things havent been so clear: Things have been pretty ruff for me these past two years...... When I graduated College in 2000, I was SURE I wanted to be a social worker for children..... So when I got a job doing just that, I thot my " Lifes work" had begun... 4 1/2 years later and totally exhasted and jaded by the system that " protects" our children, I found myself not knowing what i wanted in life.... Got a job in HR... was fired.... Got a job in sales... Quit... Got a job as a temp for a customer service position.. Quit.. Got another job in HR working for the biggest freak I've ever known...(and THATS saying something)... and the contract was pulled for no reason after two weeks... Two years of New types of jobs....being a Nanny... doing Customer service for $11 an hour....Sales for a bunch of mafia guys that was almost purely commission only....HR jobs for ppl that were in need of mental health services..... I made mistakes.... ALLOT.... and I paid for them.... and when i thot i learned my lesson...I found that i couldnt get a job.. or keep a job... They say everything happens for a reason.. but i dont know WHY I had to suffer with 4 months unemployed.... scrounging for rent.. having to ask my family for money at 32 years old... like a loser and failure... feeling like that as well... They say " When it rains it pours".... and I see that pattern..... Couldnt get hired to save my life... THEN.... I got some staffing agencys to help me... and the offers came pouring in.. But with all the disspaointments... thinking i had a job... then losing it.... and everything else in my life.... It wa shard to choos ewhich one would be ebst for me... and sometimes it got to apoint i should take the first one that came along so i could keep a roof over me and my husbands head( and yes folks... he works too,, so dont ask that) Corey workes two jobs inorder to keep us alive... and he has been a BLESSING thru this.... But My ego has been brusied....my soul and faith in the universe beaten and battered.... I was recently offered a chance to work for my alma mater.... in a job that seems realitivly easy and something i could be REALLY good at...pays well....and seems to be almost a " Dream JOb"..... so of course i'm waiting for bottem to fall thru.... But if It doesnt..... And I've finnally found THE JOB...WHY did i have to wait so long... what type of lesson was i supposed to learn AFTER I learned the ones i felt i needed to?..... Did i deserve that type of ego hit and suffering? " Everything Happens for a Reason"...... HMMMMMMMM... Guess we'll see

Ok Peeps.... Heres an update... I got the admin job,.... Im starting tomarow... IM REALLY nervous... Its been a VERY Ruff 2 years for me...But i'm hoping its over now.. and that my life can get back on track... Corey, (my husband), found a Hampster in the street a few days ago... we named her Houdini... Becasue she mustve escaped.... so now we have three pets... 1 dog, 1 cat, 1 hampster The last day at my PT nanny job did NOT go well... the youngest is ill with mental haealth issues... and he freaked out.. and hit me and shit... it kinda sucked... since it was our last day..... BUt he did calm down.... but it was sad... So.. thats my update... have a new job.. New Pet...and some new freinds that mean the world to me already.. Keep in touch my peeps!!!

Hey all... Im happy they have these now... Looking forward to writing " about me's" and shit in here... FYI:... Have a job interveiw tomarrow... wish me luck my chuckleheads.....LOL