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Even though I'm going down to my brother's for emotional support during his divorce hearing on Thursday, I am still considering it a vacation. Emotional support I can handle ALOT better than physical. My mother can barely do anything for herself, and my body has more problems than hers, but I still do many things I shouldn't be. On my mini vacations I can get online as often as I want, get on the phone all I want, and SLEEP all I want LMAO
I haven't been able to take the vacations as I often as I'd have liked to during the pandemic, so now things are turning around, I'm going to do what I can to get out and have some relaxation. My mother's condition is starting to get a little worse where her mind is concerned; she's not remembering things well, and the searching for words is worse. I can't take care of her properly unless I take care of myself.
Her best friend gets very mad when I take off for a couple of days. The thing is, my cousins are a mile away and can help in case of emergency, the neighbors are all aware when I go, and I call every day to check on her. I don't take off without things in place, I'm not as fucking cruel as she thinks I am. If her friend had her way, I would never have a life again, and I would surrender my life to my mother completely. I can't do that, I'm only 51, I deserve my life, at least what is left of it.
Mom will eventually need full time care, and will need a care facility. Until that happens, because it could be 2 years or 20 years, I need my breaks. Who knows, maybe I will come to see whoever is reading this *smiling*
