So, you sit at the computer, search the ads and get nothing. You then proceed to post your own ad in hopes of getting spam I guess (or at least thats my expectation). OK, so all that being said, I am posting anyway. And I never know what to say. Here I am trying to pique interest with a 5 or 6 word heading and a post that someone actually wants to read and reply to. I am intelligent, quick witted, have an excellent vocabulary, and can even be eloquent and yet I still dont know the formula here for getting the right responses. I guess I will just go with some of the basics and hope that someone decides they want to know more.

For starters, I am 38, live in littleton, 5'8", 200lbs, dark hair and eyes

I am jewish and would prefer to meet someone jewish for several reasons I wont go into right now since my profile is already quite long but even if you are not jewish we may be able to figure ways around that.

Guess I should also note here I am a smoker.

I am the divorced dad of 2 children. They are my world and reason for living but I dont get them often enough which kills me. Not sure if there is a correlation but I do have an affinity for single moms.

I am considered attractive but beauty is different to everyone so I guess that is meaningless. Will be happy to send a picture and let you decide for yourself. am I writing an ad? Great question if I do say so myself. Here it is.....

I am tired of spending so much time alone. I miss having someone to call when something good or bad happens. I hate not having someone to text in the middle of the day to just say "hi, im thinking of you". And I loathe going to sleep and waking up alone (although my laptop does keep me company its not the same).

I got divorced 5 yrs ago and I was over it in days of her filing. Please dont think this to mean I didnt care about the marriage. I was completely dedicated to my marriage but as soon as she decided she wanted a divorce she became evil and malicious. The fight still continues because she manipulates the situation using the kids as pawns and thats the only thing I care about, my kids, Yes, this means I have some baggage and I will not apologize for that. I will fight to my last breath for my kids.

I cant tell you why but I have been stagnant as far as committing to a relationship. I know thats a weird way to phrase it but what I mean is I get involved in relationships that just dont go anywhere. I think it is because I knew from the beginning they werent the right one. Its almost comical that I persue these relationships that wont go anywhere. Part of my issue is I try to help and end up trying to be the savior and that never plays out well cause I end up feeling disrespected and used.

Now I think I am ready. My mindset has started to change and I feel I am ready for something real, something equal, something worth holding onto.

If you made it this far I have spilled alot of information out at you but there must be a reason you kept reading. Hopefully that means you will respond cause I am hoping to hear from you

Please don't bother with secret admirer. If you would like to talk to me send me a message on fubar or I can be reached on aol as pcwander. You will get a response if you contact me directly.