SWEETLILANGEL252005 GOTTA LOVE ME's blog: "love"

Falling in love with you is one of the hardest things I've ever done. Some people find that strange, but then, they haven't been fighting their heart for years, relabling every feeling as "misguided" or worse. When I speak to you, I'm still waiting for the numbness that refuses to come. The other day when you left, my heart screamed a protest. Was it fake? I ask myself the question again, the same question I've been asking for all this time. The difficulty of the situation is made harder by the fact you want me too. How do I know? The smiles you give me, the phrases you choose, your eyes. I stare into your eyes and my heart jumps. I stare into your eyes and my head reels. We're best friends, but I think I'm in love with you, I'm convinced you're in love with me, but I can't be sure. I can't tell you my feelings, I can't hear you tell me yours. You're the girl I want, but it cannot be. Can we ever be together? The answer to that is what really leaves me numb

some times i sit and look at the stars, and ill name the brightest one after your name, because no matter where i go, or where i am, theres always some thing that reminds: the days we laughed and first kissed, that night at the movies, all snuggled and sweet. Because every one knows that we were meant to be together, thats why i shall wait until your ready to try again, because your name is with mine, imprinted in my heart, and remember when your ready to love ill be here thinking of you.

Throughout my short existence, I've found but one true love, Someone who fits me perfectly, Just like a rubber glove. This person is someone I trust, Someone who's always there, Someone who I can turn to, Through darkness and despair. I've known since I first met her, I love her oh so much, I long for her to love me, And to feel her gentle touch. She says that she still loves me, Yet just wants to be my friend, But I know that I'll still love her, Until the very end. I wish that I could have her, As my very own, But I guess I had my chance, And I guess that chance was blown. This girl I love so very much, Means more to me than ever, And I hope deep down inside, That one day we'll be together.