Introduction
This poem reflects what it is like when you make someone your everything and forget about yourself. (A lesson I lived and learned the hard way.) When their happiness and needs become your whole world - and once they are gone you are left with what? Loneliness, anger, bitterness and a broken spirit. But eventually we learn that there is life after heart-break and we eventually let go and move on. The lesson being : Don't make somebody your everything- cause when they're gone you've got nothing. I hope that whoever reads it, takes something good with them.
LOST IN YOU
Searching for acceptance, I was in pursuit of something true.
Having faith that if I was patient,
one day I'd succeed & receive love from you.
I devoted myself - mind, body & soul,
but it didn't appear to be enough.
This foolish heart came to believe in the possibility of love.
My eyes were blinded to all- but you, hoping for love to fill the void.
Letting you in so deep, I vanished entirely,
but soon my dreams would be destroyed.
My every thought surrounded your happiness,
more important than anything else to me.
Don't know when, but somehow along the way-
I changed so quick and willingly.
My will was no longer my own,
my world thrown into confusion.
But your façade diminished, it was all deception- a grand illusion.
I never noticed how you observed me, or how your eyes held such disdain.
I couldn't even fathom the idea that someday
you would be the source of so much pain.
I became secondary - ignored all that had to do with myself.
Unconscious this road traveled with you
was something I should keep on alert.
When my will, my heart & my life were yours, maliciously you said goodbye.
Once I let go of the anguish and misery
and realizing without you - I would survive!