SexyEyes's blog: "Life"

Lost… Once strong for words, now speechless Not knowing where to go, what to do What to say, what to feel My mind numb, my heart throbs. A new horizon stares at me Its sun's bright morning rays Shine down upon me Showing me a place I've seen once before. In a distance I see a beach With its pristine blue waters Bordered with clear white sand Lusciously inviting me to step in… Walking on the white sand beach Step by single step to the shore I go With feet touched gently by waves A cool breeze blowing, I hesitate... Shall I? Will I? Could I? A girl lost in a world… What are you trying to make me feel? I wish I knew…

God, grant me courage and hope for every day Faith to guide me along my way Understanding and wisdom, too And grace to accept what life gives me to do. It's easy to grow downhearted when nothing is going our way It's easy to be discouraged when we have a troublesome day But trouble is only a challenge to spur us on to achieve the best that God has to offer if we have the faith to believe Helen Steiner Rice

Playground Philosophy Employing both wit and wisdom an unknown philosopher once said: "Getting over a painful experience is much like crossing monkey bars. You have to let go at some point in order to move forward." There are things that we never want to let go of, people and experiences to which we want to keep holding tight,but sometimes we have to let go before we can see if we have anything worth holding on to. Letting go gives us a new perspective. It allows us to see the beginning of a new and better life. May you always be willing to let go of that which no longer serves so you can get a better grasp on those things that do. And until tomorrow may you be aware you are loved beyond measure and a cherished blessing to me. May your day be filled with all things good.

"I have always been delighted at the prospect of a new day, a fresh try, one more start, with perhaps a bit of magic waiting somewhere behind the morning."~ J.B. Priestly (1894-1984) English author With each new day comes the chance to start again; to dust ourselves off and begin anew, filled with fresh reserve and determination. Each day we live is a precious gift. It is up to us to treat it so. May you always find the magic tucked within the folds of each new day

In loving memory of Edward. Father, son, brother, ex husband. 1969 - 2007 May you now find peace with the Lord. One night, a man had a dream. He dreamed that he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand....one belonging to him...the other to the Lord. When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand and he noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times of his life. This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, You'd walk with me all the way. But I've noticed that during the most difficult times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why in times when I needed you most, you would leave me." The Lord replied: "My precious, precious child, I love you and I would never, never leave you during your trials and suffering. When you see only one set of footprints it was then that I carried you!" I Love You Daddy XOXOXO Jessica

Just wanted to say thank you to all my friends who have listened, cared, shown concern and offered me their prayers and blessings during this sad part in me and my daughters life. You all know who you are. It's times like this that we find out whom our real friends are. It's so amazing how, although I haven't met any of my many new friends here on CT, you have all been more of a friend than those that I have met and considered themselves a friend. I'm flying out to Chicago tomorrow and will be back Saturday. So please don't think I forgot you all and will return rates, comments and messages when i return. I will miss you all. Hugs and Kisses, Connie

I spent the last 2 years trying to move on and start over after leaving my ex. The pain and quilt I felt for him was sometimes very overwhelming. At times I hated what he had done and what he had become, a drug addict. Other times I felt sorry for him and felt I let him down and didn't try enough to help him, even though I spent the last 3 years of our marriage trying to help him. In those 3 years he had tried killing himself many times. He has spent the last 7 months in prison awaiting his destiny. He decided his own destiny. Well last night he finally succeeded, he took his life in his own hands. He's no longer suffering, but what about the rest of that are left here especially his daughter. Not really sure how or what to feel right now. Just kind of feeling numb.

Ok, I'm a single parent of a 10 year old daughter. I work FT and try very hard to provide food, clothing, and a decent home. I don't like to take hand outs, but sometimes you just need to put your pride aside. So I go to the county social services office to see about getting assistance for food stamps. I am, afterall, a tax paying citizen. Well, not onlky did I not qualify for that, 2 days later I get notice in the mail that they're going to discontinue my daughters health insurance. It would cost me $200.00 to get her covered through my employer. It's bad enough that I get no support from my ex whatsoever because he's in prison, but what's even worse is that the taxes I pay that should be there to help me are supporting him and all the other low lifes out there. So while my ex and all the others get rewarded with food, clothing and shelter, I have to struggle to make ends meet and my daughter has to do without, especially with no healthcare. So where does one go to get a little help? Where's the justice.