James's blog: "life"

well every one its been another year since my dad passed. just 4th 2007 will bring it to 4 years and this time it seems to be the hardest its ever been for me. there have been times when i just wanna end it and then i think of the loved ones i have and how fucked it would be if i did that to them. this pain is so hard to deal with and i just wanna fade away. but with the help of friends and ma buttercup i think wait i know i will make it and move on. well this is all i wanted to say so thank you for checkin me out much love to you all. p.s. Dad I love You and miss you so much

HEY ALL MANY OF YOU HAD MY OLD BIGDADDY NAME ON UR YAHOO PLZ GET RID OF IT. AND PLZ ADD BIGDADDY_23605 THATS WHAT IM UNDER NOW TY AND PEACE

Well yall i called monday and on june 19th i have an appointment to go to the weightloss surgery center and find out about the Lap Band. so hope all goes well. will let yall know more

well yall been awhile since i did one of these. well went to my docs thursday and we talked about the opions of the gastric bypass or the lap band. well we thought the lap band would be better for me. so next week ill be setting up a meeting with the doc that does that and find out how much it will be and what risks are involved. so keep me in ya thoughts and prayers and hey next year will be a whole new me. well im out much love from ya one and only DJ Bigdaddy

so ok a few month agos i wrote a blog about how some people can be cold to each other. what i mean by this is that people lookin at me like i should just stay home and not come out in public, well that happend a few months back after a Def Leppard concert, it got me down and wanting to kill myself and just leave this world to make pople happy. Well fast forward a few month and god im so glad i have friends like all my cherry friends who have helped me past that. I love life and i have so many wonderful people in my life. Kimmie my lil Skittles i love you babe and u are awsome. Di u rock so hard u make me smile all the time. Tammy what can i say about you, one thing i can say is Careing, your heart is alway open to me and i thank u for that. My buddy and Co owner Shewolf she has had my ear everyday and she was ready to come here and smack me down if i felt that way again ty hunny u rock ( and ya daughter is a funny one lol). and then theres Danni omg she helped me when i was at my lowest point she will always have a place in my heart as you all do. well im done from the bottom of my heart tyou all and i love each and every one of you. As noted by my sexxy kimmie i did leave out one person and omg i dont know why it happned but there was one other person that helped me in my times of bein down, and that was CRYSTAL aka DJ Thund3r she was also there for me an i love her for that . again much love yall and kimmie love u baby

Hey Yall if u have not done it id like for you to plz hit ma page and sign ma guest book. i would really love it if you all did it for me would mean alot to me. i know i dont ask for much but this i am asking for. much love to all that have sign it already and i will find a way to repay u all much love all

well if tusedays avent was not great enough. 2 days ago i stub my toe and end up breaking the fucker. so yea my week is goin good fuck i hate this week wish it was over. oh and its ma middle toe on ma left knee which got spraind in the car wreak tuesday. so yay im on good drugs but damn it I BROKE MA TOE LOL. ok im done

Well on the way home from work tonight this white car desides he wants to turn left in front of my van. so im kinda pissed and my knee is fucked. im ready to fuckin kill the asswhole. i mean what the fuck cant you see a gold van comein but nooooooooooooooooooooooo imma tirn anyway. what a fucking moron. any way thats my rant on that and yes im fine but like i said my knee is hurtin bad but ill live.

FUCK THESE DOWN RATERS THEY ARE THE REASON IMMA LEAVE CT. WHY DONT YOU COME TELL ME WHO YOU ARE YOU SCARED LITTLE FUCKIN PRICKS.