Well, Chris did a blog about his life before me and what he has gone through, so I thought I should do one too.
As Chris said too, I had been through my share of failed relationships. Got married the first time at a young age... had my son Ryan when I was 22. When Ryan was 9 months old I left his father as he was abusive. From there on I had a few more (more then I want to admit) relationships that seem to go sour for one reason or another.
The hardest time in my life began in 2002 and my life has never been the same since. In December of 2002 my only child was diagnosed with Cancer. Ryan fought the disease for a year and a half... tragically and sadly, he passed away in May of 2004. After Ryan passed... I was lost. Thinking I was ok, trying to be strong, brave etc. I neglected myself and it all caught up with me a year later. Depression, panic attacks etc. I was a forever changed person. My marriage started falling a part and before long he told me he didn't want to be married to me anymore. So, not only was I trying to cope with the loss of my son, but I had the added "burden" (for lack of better words)of going through a divorce.
We all go into relationships thinking THIS one is going to last forever... and when it doesn't it stings, it hurts, it's hard to pick yourself up and go on... and believe me, I had every reason to NOT go on.
The end of July of 2006 a friend of mine invited me to Lost Cherry. I joined the day after my birthday. The last thing I was looking for was a relationship. I was just looking to have fun here with my friends... but then Chris walked into my life and from that moment on it was forever changed. I can't even tell or describe how he has made me feel. I have had a problem with opening up and talking about how I feel with my ex-husband or significant other because my feelings had been dismissed numerous times in the past, yet Chris made it easy for me to do so. Although Chris will never fully understand how I feel at times, he still cares, he listens, he let's me have my moments without making me feel I am wrong for doing so.
Yes, I love him. Yes, I am with him. Yes, I want to be with him for the rest of my life and it is my wish and hope that we will continue to grow with each passing day.
Chris has awakened ME again and has allowed me to be ME. I will be forever thankful to him for that.
Chris, I love you so much. I look forward to each sunrise and each sunset. The looks, the grins, the chuckles, the smiles, the glances... it's the little things that are important.
I have lost a lot in my life - but I can say the day I found you, I was truly blessed.
Thank you Chris for all you have brought into my life and thank you for sharing your family and sons with me.
I love you.
Love,
Trudy
