ok here goes i meet this wonderful person i fell so much inlove with and alot of bullshit has happend that should of never happend because my ex wanted to keep stuff going just to start arguments , i have done stupid thing but everyone make mistakes in life the only mistake i never made is loveing this person she is the best person in my life no one ever treated me like a person like she did,, yes i threw it all away because i was blind,, i am asking for that last chance to prove myself in life i am not how i used to be i stay to my self and dont talk to anyone,, if i cant fix anything in my life then why am i still on this earth ,, i dont want to be here without that wonderful person ,,i try so hard and all everyone does is look down on me i should of listened to my family years ago and left my ex because of her and her family i dont look up on my self anymore all i get is critisized by her family for 13 years and i was done with that and found a much better person that i want to grow old with i just dont know what to do anymore ,, i want so much in my life to fix all this that i let get messed up i would die trying this person means everything to me thats why i am going were i can to fix myself to prove that to all you that dont believe you will see i do keep my word,, comment if you wanna i dont care