Classical Kid Loves Music's blog: "Kid"

“I don't want to fall asleep without you-- If I close my eyes, I might wake to never find you here. And I'll realize everything we had was only a dream, And we were never meant to be...” “Close your blue eyes, darling. I know they grow heavy now, If I could hold you, you know I would somehow. But distance is a monster—but perhaps also a blessing in disguise To prove that love knows no boundaries, no size.” 'I long for you,” “And I long for you,” “Think that'll ever change?” “Doubt it.” “I hope it stays the same.” “You're my waking thought, My sinking dream as I drift off. You make the world a master piece Just with that sweet smile.” “How did you know I was smiling?” “I can just tell.” “Maybe you do know me too well-- More than I know myself, it seems. So easily you liberate me of doubt, and lift me from the ground I've fallen to.” “You were always meant to fly.” “How do you know?” “I saw your halo.” “Stop—you're saying too much.” “I don't think you get told enough-- That you're the light to someone's darkness-- The helping hand to those in need; You have the biggest heart I've ever seen.” “You think so?” “I know so.” “Well so do you.” “Yeah?” “I haven't meant anyone who does half the things you do. So quick to lend a hand; anyone can turn to you. I must admit, sometimes I get jealous, but I stand proud To have such a wonderful man such as yourself around.” “Wonderful man, eh?” “The best.” “Well I couldn't ask for better either.” “You mean it?” “You know I do. Now it's getting late. I should let you go But remember I'm as far as your closest dream And someday soon, darling... It's just going to be you and me.” “I can't wait.” “Me either.” “Goodnight.” “Sweet dreams.” “You too.” “I love...” Dial tone.

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Prayer and meditation are the means of our daily contact with our Higher Power.  Frankly though, for some survivors, even the mention of the word prayer can trigger painful flashbacks.  Often it was the very people who abused us who taught us how to pray and who espoused "religious values."

 

These experiences created for us an image of God who looked an awful lot like our abuser.  If we turn to a Higher Power that we believe is abusive in any way, we are still victims.  Rather, we need to find a Higher Power that is on our side and to establish daily conscious contact for our healing and growth.

 

T. Thomas

Surviving with Serenity

 

By daily turning to our Higher Power in prayer, we gain inner strength and guidance for our lives as well as the courage to reach out to other survivors for help when we are in need.

It is our holding on that leaves us stuck in a rut of victimization - feeling all alone, isolated and constantly on the defensive. Letting go is a choice we make on our own behalf. We choose to let go into life, into a natural world that welcomes us, into our own true nature. It can be frightening to let go of the familiar. So we don't have to let go all at once. We can let go little by little, one day at a time. Today we may choose to let go enough to smell the beauty of a rose. Or perhaps we may ask for a hug from someone who genuinely cares for us and respects our boundaries. The more open-handed we become, the more open our hearts are to receive life's gifts. I open my heart to receive. T. Thomas Surviving with Serenity

I am starting to do theater again.  For 14 yeas I was the assistant conductor and principal clarinetist for the musicals done with my local theater group in Hammond.  i also ran the lights and sound boards for the plays during those years.  That ended 15 years ago whenI moved from that city.

This week I am starting all over with a new theater group in New Orleans where I have been living for the past 16 years.  I have volunteered to work with the local theater group and when they found out about my experience they asked me to run the mixer and special affects for the show they are doing with their youth organization.  The name of the show is Smokey Joe's cafe.

I start tomorrow with the rehearsals - Tuesday the 23rd of June with performances running Friday night and Saturday afternoon

I am excited about being back in theater again and look forward to this production.