I am still not out looking for work. I am trying to get the medication in line for now. All I seem to be able to do is sleep. I hate taking things that make my mind not mine. And to th ink I used to pay money to feel this way. Today all I want is to feel like me and be able to see my friends. I am not real sure who they are now but I know there are those who truely care about me and want to help me out. I just don't reach out well. I never want to be a burden or sound like a whinner. Today I am learning how to come here and let the beast out of the cage. If I don't find a way to do that it will eat me alive. The beast is my addiction at the moment, and the meds are pain pills. Any help is good. Blessings to All.
