look at you sitting skin all bloody and bruised.i beat you beat you you love the abuse.the fun the games and all the pain.your my cute little torture doll.i torment and torture.the knifes the whips and chains.the wax and biteing.don't tell anyone it's are little secret. my cute little torture doll.dragging your nails across my skin i'can never forget this.your in my head your inside my heart.your in there tearing me apart.your peircings and tats the way you scream at me like that. it makes me me want you so bad.my cute little torture doll.you you taste my blod soaked cheek.as your holding me.as i gaze into to your eyes i can see my demise.but it seem like the perfect way to die.no matter what they say they will never take my cute little torture doll.i ask please give the pain so i may show them all what they can never be. we will never be whole .feeling so cold .spinning out of control. i can't live without my cute little torture doll.are souls seem to fade.as we lay lifeless on the floor.trying so hard to open the door.to bridge this gap.to try stop time to stay in this moment. shutting out the world. drowning in the sorrow.a total collapse. your gone . i lie awake . thinking about anothers eyes. to hurt to tell her how i feel.missing what feeling i had left.the pain just isn't satisfying anymore.for all the tears i've held in.being the guy that was cute but never dateable.i've had all there tears falling upon my shoulder.heard all there ideas of perfect guys.knowing he's was right in front of there eyes.it's hard holding the frustration in.knowing if i admit my feelings there's a chance of failure. i crawl into a shell and hide myself within.they see the tattoo on my stomach not knowing the symbolism.if they only knew it was my way of holding on to the thought of true love. just a glutton for punishment i guess.but she knows. that just scares me even more. so with this last statement i say . i know some day this painful journey will and that happieness is just a breath away.but can i take the chance of being hurt again?