Lee's blog: "Poetry"

I feel myself slipping deeper and deeper,

To the point where nothing matters.

I close my eyes and all I see

Is the darkness that engulfs me.

As black as night,

Empty, nothing in sight.

What brings on this state of mind?

For that, I have no courage to find.

I hear the voice whisper,"Get it over with. Just do it!"

But, for my wrist I cannot slit,

Cause I have no courage deep inside,

To make that nagging voice subside.

I pop some pills to feel better,

But still it doesn't matter.

I close my eyes and see his face,

Taking over what once was empty space.

No longer as black as night,

His face is clearly in my sight.

All I can do is cry,

Frequently, I ask the question "why?"

I hear the voice reply, "Get it over with. Just do it!"

But, for the brick wall I cannot hit,

Cause I have no courage deep inside,

To make the replying voice subside.

I go to a shrink,

For him to tell me how I think.

Why I see all these brutal images,

Why I go through all these different stages.

But my heart is still as black as night,

And I am ready to take my flight,

Jump over the bridge, into the sky,

When I hit the bottom, I will die.

Once more the voice demands, "Get it over with. Just do it!"

And then I plummet.

To keep the voice quiet deep inside,

The only way to make the voice subside.

I guess I could have ran away,

But, like always, the voice would have known what to say.