175 liter's blog: "just a poem"

Burdens Lost The words you say to me Make me think That I am important Makes me wonder if I really do matter To this cold heartless world Your words run through my mind Looking for the right spot To take root Growing, blooming me into A better person that I will enjoy being around The images you make for me Fill my heart with hope That someday I will be whole Taking my hand into yours You lead me from the Darkness of my depths Into the new sun Warming my face With your bright light Unlocking the place I hide from the world Falling upon my knees I weep for my Burdens lost

Destroy and Shatter Cast me aside Like a child's toy That they have outgrown Hidden away In the toy box of time Until the moment you Remember the times We had The laughter we shared You take your hand Reaching deep to the Bottom of the box Pulling my sore limp body From the scattered Fragment of your Past possessions You pull me close Hugging me telling me Your false feelings Of friendship How close we are "You are my closest friend" You whisper in my ear Once again sparking The light of hope In my ever-trusting heart Thinking the destructive Thoughts of serenity You look away Dropping me back To the darkness of the box You turn to find your next play toy To destroy and shatter

Rid Myself of Me Breezing across my deserted mind The memories of the past Conjure the images of my life Happy times that turn to gray Filling these ghostly visions with The dark things I have done Never forgiving myself Past wrongs as if they Were here by my side Laughing in my ears Swirling echos in my head Telling me that I am Not worth the bright Sunlight shinning on my face Screaming that I do not Deserve the happiness I seek Bowing my head I conform To their yells of hatred Knowing all the time it is My mind that is Pushing me down The dark path I walk alone Fooling myself into Believing I could be happy Knowing now I cannot Find true contentment Until I can rid myself of me

Tears The first tear That rolled down my face Was the tear of life Born into a exciting new world Everything is new and fresh Looking at the world With innocent eyes The second tear I cried Was the tear of manhood Nothing is new anymore The world turns tainted and cold The feelings of youth fade Torn away from young ideas Thrown into the darkness That is life The third tear is for love A feeling so pure in nature When it starts to grow Our heart pounds with hope Thoughts swirl into images of you The world seems anew Then it crashes back down To the dark abyss Love, the only false feeling The last tear that fills my eyes Is the happy tear of death Coming to take away The pain that life brings Sorrow stops with the Last beat of my heart As my lungs exhale The stale air that fills my lungs I am at peace True happiness I have finally found

Chain me up Beat me bruise me Let me suffer Worthless shell With no inner core Hollow be thyself Only in a name From which I dwell Feeding off decaying Memories of pain Foremost part at the end Sow up my eyes Let me never speak again No friend have I found With true intent Only lies and lovers Cruel beyond repent No more do I want What I thought I need Barren is my heart Never to breath Suffocate me Make me dead Can't you see All the twisted Vile thoughts that That dance in my head You will never know How many tears I have cried The pain the fills Me from within How I tremble To hear myself speak Never wanting to be Around anyone Longing for affection Passion of creatures Never to be me

Let me go Dream of the Day and night In which I never had Let me go Into the unknown Laughing inside As I stumble Let me go After the one That I have Not seen Let me go Last breath taken No words spoken Arise from the ash Let me go Where I have Always been Inner hell Let me go Just let me go Not as if Caring was for me Never has anyone Looked into my eyes With love Never has my hand Been filled with another Walking down the beach Let me go To the lonely feelings Of the life I have known Let the burning rejection Flower in my heart Turning my blood cold My soul which Knows all Forgets to let it's self go So please me Let me go.