I know I haven't been around much so I've been kinda sucky.
I dunno why this is the first place I think to come to when I haz issues.
Anyways my dad went back to hong kong for 3 weeks during easter and i didn't go because I had work and stuffs to do, I felt kinda guilty cos I hadn't seen my grandparents in like 3 years almost.
I bumped into my dad today and the first thing he tells me was that i should call my grandparents more often because they're really ill. My dad told me that whilst he was in hong kong my grandad had surgery for bowel cancer 2-3 weeks ago. I was surprised cos I did a video call with them whilst my dad was there and he seemed fine but my grandad actually had the surgery just after he spoke to me.
Dad said he was in a lot of pain after the surgery and that all he can do is lay on the sofa, he said the pain was so bad that he would rather die. What's worse is that my grandad was the cook of the house and my grandma doesn't know how to cook, so all they eat now is takeout rice boxes.
My dad told me this in the middle of a busy shopping centre whilst I was stood next to my housemate, I asked for a bit how he was and then I said I had to leave. I think my dad thinks I'm a robot or that I don't care because I was just like 'oh okay...i got to go now'. Even my housemate looked more shocked by the news than I was, and she was all like you're just a strong person blah blah blah. I don't know, I feel bad because I'm not feeling as bad as I think I should be. Who knows.
Anyways, after being away for so long I'm just a ray of sunshine huh?