DetroitstQ33's blog: "Is iz what it iz!! Digest that!!"

Night of darkness, Light of day,,, hell will gather, to hear him play,,, Up and down,,, the halls he'll pass,,, drinking from the golden glass,,,, From all around ,,, be it far or near, they gather to the sounds of screams and tears,,, but when its all, been said and done, He isnt anywhere near the rising sun, As he fell,,, from Gods good grace, he had a look upon his face,, within his voice, it was loud and clear,, that he will instill the soul of fear, Yet from that golden glass of thought, he had no love, or so he thought, to open his heart and bare his soul, this would never happen, or as its told,,, With one's around him, showering him with their love, he's cold and heartless, no matter where its from,,,, He thinks that others are one's to blame, but then again,, this is his only game,, He knows nothing else but to be alone, with his heart like glass he casts the first stone,,, and turns his back on those who see,, to keep the distance is all he needs, not caring who's heart he stumbles upon, only thinking of his awesome song,,, again thru the halls,,, he strides with pride, while all along,,, his friends heart has died. Closeness and warmth, no longer there,, the trust of assurance, is gone in a tear, to be alone,, his friend will respect, and hope and pray, it was for the best!!! Te amo!!

Today I told my friend I loved him, With a child like smile on my face, I long and dream for us to be one, Where we are in our happy place, He brings a ray of light to my life, That makes me feel so whole, I wonder does he feel the same, My friend, I never want you to go, You are like a breath of fresh air mi amor, When the sun will always shine, To have you is to cherish you, One day papi, you will be mine, I want to be your everything, What you wake up to everyday, I want to hold you and to let you know, That my heart will always stay, Looking back on all the memory’s, With the laughter, tears and joy, You will always have my heart mi amor, You will always be my boy, To see you smile lord help me please, I feel like a child again, With renewed feelings of wonder and hope, Where there is no longer any pain, You are my angel, sent from above, I would be so lost without you, I need you in my life mi amor, You truly make my skies all blue, TeAmo Mucho Papi!!!! Yo –y- Tu Por Siempre!!!

When tomorrow starts without me, And I'm not there to see; If the sun should rise and find your eyes All filled with tears for me. I wish so much you wouldn't cry The way you did today, While thinking of the many things, We didn't get to say. I know how much you love me, As much as I love you, And each time that you think of me, I know you'll miss me too. But when tomorrow starts without me, Please try to understand, That an angel came and called my name, And took me by the hand, And said my place was ready, In heaven far above, And that I'd have to leave behind All those I dearly love. But as I turned to walk away, A tear fell from my eye, For all my life, I'd always thought, I didn't want to die. I had so much to live for, So much yet to do, It seemed almost impossible, That I was leaving you. I thought of all the yesterdays, The good ones and the bad, I thought of all the love we shared, And all the fun we had. If I could relive yesterday, Just even for awhile, I'd say good-bye and kiss you And maybe see you smile. But then I fully realized, That this could never be, For emptiness and memories, Would take the place of me. And when I thought of worldly things, I might miss come tomorrow, I thought of you, and when i did, My heart was filled with sorrow. But when I walked through heaven's gates, I felt so much at home. When God looked down and smiled at me, From His great golden throne, He said "This is eternity And all I've promised you." Today for life on earth is past, But here it starts anew. I promise no tomorrow, But today will always last, And since each day's the same day There's no longing for the past. But you have been so faithful, So trusting and so true. Though there were times you did some things, You knew you shouldn't do. But you have been forgiven And now at last you're free. So won't you take my hand And share my life with me? So when tomorrow starts without me, Don't think we're far apart, For everytime you think of me, I'm right here, in your heart!! ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, Besos

As i observe the world around me, I look around and see so much greif, The look of sadness on everyones face, So many around that are truly unhappy, To watch the children in my neighborhood, Having really nothing at all to do, Seeing four year olds on the streets alone, Where are their parents and what do they do?? A little boy came up to me the other day, Said he was hungry and had nothing to eat, I fed his hungry little tummy, Then had a talk with his mother about this, She told me it was none of my business, That little boy, with a sad look on his face, I smiled at him and told him to come over when hungry, His mother is just a simple disgrace!! Im not the type of person, That would turn my back on an innocent child, When are people going to wake up and see, Our kids are ingesting wayyyy to much vile!! Some vile, spewed from their parents, Others taking it in from their world all around, Why am I the only one who sees this?? Its like peoples morals are all over the ground, I hope and pray one day people will wake up, And see all the hope that our children do bring, It simply is putting faith and hope in them, Please Lord make it a day I will see...... Food for thought everyone!! Written by: Azalia Written on: July 6th, 2007

So far i thought i would update you all on how im doin,,,, Ive received alottttt of phone calls from alot of you and it is much appreciated!!! *kisses and hugs. As most of you know ive had to undergo some treatments,,,,, so far everything is ok. My sons, My family, and my boys Kevin and Parrish with their mother and sister, have been here on a reg holding things down for me. As most of you know ive moved back to Canada. Its only temporary till i get this house sold here. Then im going to be back in Michigan, Not right in Detroit though LOL. Im looking at Dearborn Heights, or further near the airport. The houses ive seen out there are nice and the area seems str8t so thats my aim. As far as the boys, they both have had their bdays. My oldest is now 18 omfg!!!!!!! LOL 'A man" as Kevin and my grandpa says it LOL. My youngest is 17 and still a bratt! Well yall,,, I have two weeks left of treatments,,,,,,,,,, then another scan. If the Cancer is still there then my Dr told me there will be another 6 week round of treatment again,,,,, all i can do is pray and keep my eyes to the sky........ My pastor and the sisters at my church have been there for me as well,,,,,,,,,, Its funny how you never really know who your Real friends are untill something happens,,,,,, I never thought so many people would have stood by me through all of this. God bless everyone of them!! Maby one day i'll be able to show them how much i luv them for it...... Well i have to go,,, You all be good LOL and stay safe!! God Bless every one of you too~~ Besos.

To be one, is to know who you really are, and what you really want or would like to have,,,,,, If you arent in sync with your own world,, how could you ever be in sync with mine?? Food for thought!! Decifer that shyt.... then you will have my mind!

The sweet fall serenity It falls around me gently I cling tightly to each breath of air Try to grasp this sensory fair Distorted by flames so tranquil and crisp A delicate gold splashed slowly through mists Of memories that slide through my mind Thoughts of joys I must leave behind The trees forget their summer sounds Of locusts and sprinklers surveying grounds And again we will hear the whisper that sings Remember? Remember? Remember those swings? Each thought, each whim, each heavy, slow day The long drawn out moments of sweeter delays Each leaf tumbles down resisted and forced By a supernatural laziness running its course In this eerie time of year We begin to hear, hear the cold that's near And shed each smothered tear and fear In returning to surrender

When tomorrow comes and I don't wake up, will you love me just as much? Even though I can no longer speak, or caress you with a gentle, loving touch. Would you sometimes think you saw me in a crowd or heard me call your name? I guess what I'm asking is "Would our love for each other still be the same?" I would hope that you might shed a tear or maybe even two or three. In memory of all the love and tenderness that was shared between you and me. But please don't let your grief take over and completely rule your life. If you can find someone who loves you as much as I do, then take her to be your wife. For I don't want you to be lonely and I will understand that you need someone And it will not change the love we shared since the first day it all begun.