I am a simple yet complicated person. I have my faults as everyone does and I am working through them as well as learning about them. A year and a half ago and some change, I was stationed in Iraq for the second time. I had just learned about myspace and was really interested in meeting new people. For so long I had felt this loneliness and something missing in my life. I had some very important people (Buddy) that entered into my life as my friends. Some are gone now and some are still here. The one's that are still here I thank you so much for sticking with me through all my hard times and the fun too. You guys keep me going and encourage my happiness to be true.

The future will bring those things that make you have all that you wish for. For over 10 years I have spent days and nights sheltering myself and not letting who I am out. I wanted to try to live a life of happiness and try to make things work at home. That proved to be the wrong way to live. I am currently going through a slow and careful separation/ divorce and I know that what I was living was wrong. I lied to myself for too long that it could work. It was my own fault for letting myself be fooled into thinking that I was going the right route. Now I know that there is a different way to live and be the guy that I want to be. This divorce will be finished in a very short time and I am moving on with life in a way that is fun, free, unlimited, open, exploring and exciting.

I just got back from a 15 month tour again in Iraq and it went ok. Was still alot of things that can never get back but i deal with those as good as i can. I was safe and am just glad to be out of there and back to reality.Thank you all for being who you are and for spending a moment to be supportive to all the Soldiers. You are the best.

For Always I will be there. Sometimes dwelling on the past and not having the hopes for the future keep me in a place I don't want to be. I am going through this hard time but it is finally beginning to move. I don't know how painful it will be or what the outcome will look like. I do know that regardless, I will be free to live in a way that happiness each day is there with me. I know that when I return from Iraq, a different man will walk off that plane with a whole new status and the start of life in ways that will be a true reward. Thank you all for hanging in with me. I look to you all for guidance and support.