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So I allowed myself to get close to somebody on MyYearbook.com even though he lives in a different state. We've been flirting back and forth and have even talked on the phone a few times. Lately he's been going through a rough time being off meds (ADHD and depression) and I've been there for him. (I'm Bipolar and have Anxiety.) Well, tonight I had a bad night at work and didn't exactly feel like flirting but expected him to listen to me the way I did but what does he do? He signs off messenger without saying anything and refuses to answer my messages on yearbook. Am I just wasting my time since we both live out of state? Are too crazy nutcases like us supposed to be together anyway? I don't know what to do anymore.

Has anyone else tried to do those surveys that Cherry Tap advertises to earn Cherry Bucks? It says you can complete only one a day but you will almost never qualify for the surveys they present. There's been times where I'd be disqualified after putting which state I live in and other times I'd be halfway through and then get the message "We're sorry. It appears you don't qualify for this survey. Please try another." The same thing happens when you sign up for websites that offer to pay you money for completing surveys. It's not worth it because you'll almost never be able to complete one.

Both these girls are pretty, obviously, but 2Sexi is my friend so voted for her. Unfortunately, a lot of immature wats have go and ruin a perfectly good battle by trash talking the opponent. Some of the comments about 2sexi were horrible, and I actually applaud her for not getting down to their level. But anyways......the way most of those people act you'd think that you were winning real money in these battles. My god......it's JUST THE INTERNET ! WINNING THESE BATTLES PROVES NOTHING!. It's like being back in high school again....But remember what they say, children.....arguing and battling on the internet is just like the Special Olympics....even if you win you're still RETARDED!

I ran out of Cymbalta (antidepressant) a little over a week ago, and yet I've been feeling better without it. I'm on Zoloft, Lithium, and Xanax though, and Zoloft acts as an antidepressant. Now I can't remember why I was placed on Cymbalta in the first place. The Xanax helps with my Anxiety problem. Being "bipolar" (supposedly), I'm also on Lithium as the mood stabilizer. It doesn't do much for depression, but it's supposed to keep my moods from getting too manic (and manic does not mean "happy".) In fact, most of my manic episodes have been what is known as "dysphoric" feeling a lot of irritability and rage. The problem with Lithium is that it is a very old drug and can cause many problems, especially with the kidneys. i have to keep it monitored, despite the fact i have no insurance and the tests will probably cost at least $200 out of pocket. My grandmother annoys me with her constant worrying over my money problems, despite the fact that I have not yet gone under $200 in my bank account. I definitely need a better job, but good jobs require college degrees and to get into college you need money which most people don't have so they take out loans which I would have to do, but I already have a couple thousand dollars in loans that I owe in the first place. I'm not really worried.....tons of people take many years to pay off student loans but she's driving me nuts. I keep wondering if I should really move back with parents for awhile (in Kansas). I would be much happier there then I would here, despite the problems I've had in the past with my mother's drinking. I know she's cut down quite a bit on that. Now I have another alcoholic to deal with in my family: my grandmother. It's not really my responsibility to take care of her though. There are plenty of other family members around if and when I decide to leave. I've got to start doing what's best for me and stop worrying about what others think.

Getting to know survey

1. Birthday: October 3, 1981

2. Birthplace: Camden, New Jersey

3. Current Location: Barrington, New Jersey

4. Eye Color: blue

5. Hair Color: blonde

6. Height: 5'4''

7. Right Handed or Left Handed: left-handed baby!

8. Your Heritage: Italian, Irish, and German

9. The Shoes You Wore Today: black clogs

10. Your Weakness: insecurity, fluctuating moods

11. Your Fears: tornadoes, lightning, heights, being alone for the rest of my life

12. Your Perfect Pizza: Supreme!

13. Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year: get a better job!

14. Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger: lol

15. Thoughts First Waking Up: I need a cigarette!

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What's up with all the salute photos? What exactly are the for? On other sites they've been put up if someone was called out as a fake....is that the same here?