I feel like just breaking down and then go crawl in a lil hole! My best friend is mad b/c somehow i lied to her, I don't know how but ok! She told me that I picked my son's dad over her but i never did that! I don't understand where she is coming up with that! My baby daddy wants me back but it isn't going to happen he don't even have a place of his own or a job! He's pretty much a loser and lowlife! but hey shit happens right? The only thing i can do is grow from this mistake and when the times come for another child pick the right guy! Not another loser! I had a great guy but we are only friends right now! Which sucks b/c im so in love with him and would do anything for him! And he knows that! And if he ever told me he wants to get back together I would totally run back to him in a heartbeat! The guy runs threw my mind everyday! And talking to him isn't enough for me! I want the relationship we had before! I dunno maybe god will help me out and get that special guy back into my life and get my best friend and i back on the right track!