i dont know what to do. i am so shy and bashful im afraid to start a conversation with a lady i also feel down all to time and the bad memories from my past just wont go away ive talk to councelors and shrinks but i cant get the memories of being molested when i was 5 out of my mind i say stupid shit i just got so much on my mind its driving me crazy i tried everything i cant sleep that much at night i have nightmares i feel so alone alot