In a time of serious pain I found hope and comfort in his arms.These fleeting moments made me happy.Now these memories cause me so much more heartache.In a time of such desolation his smile gives me hope. Hope has no bearings on my rational thoughts anymore.In my time of need he turned his back .However part of me clings to hope.Am I just another lost cause?,is the question that weighs heavily on my heart. Finding the strength to stay hopeful is very hard.I only hope one day to be back by his side.In his arms as his lover,his friend and his soul mate once again .In a ridiculous way I cling to this hope.Now I just need to let go of this ridiculous hope for my own heart. I need to find my own smile and regain my heart.If I'm unable to do that then there is no hope.So now I'm a fading memory and a lost cause clinging to the hope of keeping my sanity.
