Trapped in my self created inner prison so dark and so cold,
I fucking hate you, I ucking love you, Your presence lingers so bold.
Ive been burdened with regrets what ifs and shame,
Yet I hold my head high internalizing all blame.
I despise my memory for keeping you around,
I beg and plead with it coming to no common ground.
Why do you haunt me? Why not leave me alone to shed my tears?
Youre the reason for my hesitation, my senicism, YOURE the center of my fears.
One day Ill stop this madness, find peace, my inner light youll see,
One day youll be lonely and filled with remorse..,this is the day youll think of ME
.........................TOO LATE!