Ok so here goes, recent events have made me see that I need to sit down and figure out just exactly what I am looking for. I figure here is where I give the most exposure into my soul, so here is where I will try to lay it all out.

I have been single now for, oh, about 4 years give or take, that is discounting the few flings I have had in between. There has been nothing really serious and nothing lasting more than a few weeks. So, why is that exactly? Honestly, I am not sure, but I think I am coming to understand more and more as the years go on.

I believe I have been in love two times in my life. Both men will hold a place in my heart until the day I die. Neither of those men were my husband and neither of those men ended up being a very real part of my life but I loved them just the same.

The man I married was a very dear friend of mine. We would have been better off keeping things that way but we didn't and one night we conceived a child. Hence the reason I ended up in a marriage that should never have occurred. However, I have ended up with the one true love of my life and his name is Colton.

I am very happy being a single mother. I have a great job, my own house, a new car. I pay all of my bills on time and I have money left over to do what I want to do with life. I am not rich by any means; I have just learned to live within my limits. The knowledge I have I have gained through mistakes and taking wrong turns in life and through these experiences I have learned better how to manage my life.

My profile states that I am here looking for friends, networking, dating and serious relationships. I guess that must be misleading but you will see that in the end, it really is not. I am 34 years old. I have been around the block several times and I don't like to play games, although it seems that games occur anyways even from people that claim they do not appreciate them.

So, you ask what is it exactly that I am out here in search of? Well, here is what I am seeking. Companionship, first and foremost, I would love to meet someone that I can hang out with, have a drink, have a few laughs, and share an intelligent conversation with. Maybe kiss and hold hands throughout the evening. At the end of the night I do NOT want to go home with you and have mad passionate sex, at least not right away. Trust me, if I need an orgasm I have learned how to obtain that on my own. If after I get to know you and wish to take it a step further I am not opposed to sex in the least bit. In fact I welcome it very much so. I am a Pisces; we like to have sex and lots of it. So once I am at the point to where I want to have sex with you, then what? Well, assuming the sex is mutually satisfying for both parties, by all means, let’s keep doing it. If not, then thanks, it was fun knowing you and if you would like to, I would love to remain friends.

What about the next level? Well here is where it gets tricky. As I mentioned before, I have a house, I have a job and I don't need any man to help me take care of things. Sure there are some things having a man around the house would be nice for, like climbing ladders or mowing the lawn but honestly I have family and friends that are happy to help me with that. I am not looking for a substitute father for my son, the father he has does a good enough job on his own. I am not looking for a roommate and I am not looking for someone to tell me how I should live my life. I enjoy my space and I enjoy managing my own life, however it would be nice to have a friend to share things with or to just be able to talk with about my troubles.

When seeking male friends do I tend to look for someone who I could possibly see a future with? Sure! What would be the point otherwise? I mean what would be the point of dating a man who is 23 years old, has never been married, never had children and doesn't even have a decent job? I am never having any more children, that is not even physically possible and I am not sure that I want to even consider getting married again much less co-habitating.

I honestly hope that I feel this way because I just have not found the right person for me, but I can't say for sure. I am not opposed to falling in love, in fact, I welcome it. I don't believe that you can go out in search of love; I believe that love finds you. Until it does, these are my rules of life. If you understand and you are still interested, then by all means. Drop me a line. I would love to hear from you. If not, message me anyways. Ask me anything. One thing I can promise you is that I will always be honest and I will always be straightforward. I don't believe that we ever have too many friends and I welcome friends of all kinds.

Thanks for taking the time to read my little blurb.

Blessed Be and Merry Meet!

Ok one more thing.. You may have noticed my shoutbox is off. That is because I have a tendency to leave the computer and not log off. People would message me and get upset because they would think I was ignoring them. If you really want to talk to me and you made it this far through reading my profile. Please feel free to add me on yahoo at FyreFel@yahoo.com. I am not on there often but when I am I would love to hear from everyone!