Some of you have been curious to why I am not feeling good and why I have been bummed. The answer is I have been feeling bad for a few months now and finally decided to break the silence to my parents and my boyfriend. They in turn took me to my doctor. My doctor then found a massive mass on the inside of my anal cavity. I have had to have tests done to be sure its not cancer. This has been a long week for me. I am hoping that this doesnt turn out to be cancer. But if it does, I hope that I have all of your support and caring. My fubar friends and my fubar family are the best and you can see why. I broke the news to them this week and most are dumbfounded. There needs to be more awareness to this type of cancer. Its almost the worst cancer you can have. Farrah Fawcett had this horrible disease. I hope if I have it, I dont go down the road she did with it. I love you all and thank you for your support throughout this very tough trying time. -[