Okay here goes, this is how I am feeling right now and feel I need to get it out of my head but don't want to bother Jeremy with it cause he has enough on his plate worrying about the racecar. They say god puts on you what you can take, and I believe that and I feel that god must think I am really strong cause I don't think I can do this. All I want in life is a home of my own, and Jeremy to be able to race. Every time I think we are getting on track we get slapped in the face. I think I should get a second job to help pay things off and save money, but I am afraid that we will spend the money if I earn extra. I just don't know what to do and feel that we are drowning in debt and there is not end in sight. If anyone knows what I can do to take steps to help us get out of debt and start to move forward to buy a house let me know, I just feel so down and like doing my best just isn't good enough, these are just my random ramblings sorry to put it out here.