Yeah more drama in my life... Well, lets start at the beginning. While i was in GA i talked a lot with my boyfriends cousin. Which was great, i openned up a lot to her for some reason and i wish that i hadnt. I told her about the drama bullshit between me and courtney (the bitch). She knows that one of my biggest problems with people is that when they talk about me behind my back. So what does she do... of course talk shit about me to my boyfriend. Saying that she thinks im cheating on him. Ok first things first, talking about flirting and doing it are two completly different things. I said it would be cool to go up to a guy on a bike and ask for a ride but like i really would... come on! And the things that i put on the internet are completely for fun. Like i would really do all that shit that i write down.. Geez its just for fun and my boyfriend should trust me cuz thats just who i am. I joke around a lot. But hes still the only person in my life.
She should have been a real person and came to me about it. Rather than stiring up drama that didnt even need to be talked about. There is always a reason for everything, its just up to you to decide whats bullshit and whats not.
Sure when i was on the phone with my boyfriend i shouldnt have said i few things that i did... but its not like i didnt mean them. I just would have put it a litte lighter than i did. I think i have every right to be angry. She KNOWS what she did was wrong because of all the things i told her. And that my boyfriend was defending his cousin more than he was me. Its like he didnt even understand why i was so angry. I know that she is his cousin and everything but through out the entire conversation not once did he say anything to me about how he understood or agreed with me. Not once.
I have a right to be pissed. I put a certain trust in her and she showed me no fucking respect. She has lost it completely. Complete disrespect and violated my trust. Even if she appologized i dont think i will ever view her the same. Just like my other friends, if they violate my trust they will never be that close to me ever again. They might like to think that they are but in reality they are not. It takes a special person to get in my 'circle of trust' so if your in it... feel VERY privilaged. There are only i few people i share my deepest feelings with and this is the reason why. People in the world today dont give a shit about others anymore. Im just trying to find those people that do and be the same type of friend back...
I thank all my true friends who are real to me and bring shit to my face and not be a sneaky asshole about it. Ive had that shit too many times to count and quite frankly... if you dont have the guts to come to my face and tell me something whether it be a problem you have with me or something you've heard from another... then you arent worth a damn in my book. Only cowards go behind peoples backs.
Sure ill be civil to someone that has betrade me but dont ask me to be nice and make peace or 'suck it up' cuz that shit aint going to happen anytime soon.
All you have to know bout me is.. If you have a problem with me, bring it to my face, we will deal with the situation like adults. Calm and with out yelling. Not like some high school kiddy shit behind your back. If your real with me ill be real with you until you violate my trust... enough said.
