I have heard this a lot, "You are such a sweetheart." I keep saying to them, that is because I have been given no reason not to be. My Ex could tell you different. To all those that think I am so sweet.............here is a dose of reality. A trip into the mind of someone scorned. My Ex's boyfriend, who was my best friend, and a man I called lovingly, "Brother," has been in the hospital all this last week. His pancreas is shutting down, diagnosed severe diabetic, and has a concerning heart condition. He won't be released till sometime late next week at the earliest. And as she was telling this to me on the phone.............I was smiling. Honestly, I hoped for death by gonorrhea of the mouth, but if this leads to his demise, I say, one down...........one to go. At one time, I would have cared, at one time, I'd have understood her not taking care of her children at all so she could spend every moment there, even though the kids should be first and need her too..........at one time, I might have been ok by that. But I am not. If it was me in her shoes, I'd still take care of my kids, work, and visit in the hospital. My parents did it, thousands of other parents do it, why shouldn't she? Cold you say? Damn right, in my eyes, they deserve no better. Still think I am always so sweet? Then you really don't know me, or believe me..............and really, you should.
