DAWNForever Sisterhood's blog: "Chicken"

Oh how the years go by, Oh how time can certainly fly. From once just a thought in far away dreams, now into my arms and in my eyes gleam the presence of you. Your laughter and smiles which go on for miles, warms my heart and soul. You're growing up so fast, as I wish each moment with you to last forever. My little boy will someday be a man and right by your side I will forever stand. I will pick up the pieces when you fall, I will hold your hand and help you stand tall. And when the day comes when you are on your own, never feel that you are alone. No matter how near or far apart I am always right there in your heart. Always remember whatever you go through that no matter what, I will always love you

Before I was myself you made me, me With love and patience, discipline and tears, Then bit by bit stepped back to set me free, Allowing me to sail upon my sea, Though well within the headlands of your fears. Before I was myself you made me, me With dreams enough of what I was to be And hopes that would be sculpted by the years, Then bit by bit stepped back to set me free, Relinquishing your powers gradually To let me shape myself among my peers. Before I was myself you made me, me, And being good and wise, you gracefully As dancers when the last sweet cadence nears Bit by bit stepped back to set me free. For love inspires learning naturally: The mind assents to what the heart reveres. And so it was through love you made me, me By slowly stepping back to set me free.

You rocked me when I was a babe and kept me from all harm; Now may our Father cradle you in His protective arm. How often you have held my hand and taught me what was right-- May Father take you on His path, toward eternal light. And Mother, as your soothing voice would help my heart to mend-- May Father comfort you each day, and bless you to all end.

1. Strawberry Quick Strawberry flavored methamphatimines, often used to entice younger users to experiment with meth. Used to flavor meth during the cooking process (not after) which does not impact the potency. I also found an article posted on USA Today Strawberry quick: The new & improved form of meth? ************************************************** OK I did a google search on this to see if it was REAL and it indeed seems to be valid- there was a contradictory report that claims its all a hoAX BUT AS THE MOM OF A TWO teens im not willing to take that cance! please pass this on- im going to blog it as well even though noone ever looks at them :P ~Temptress~ *************************************************** Body: Department that they have received emails from emergency responder organizations to be on the lookout for a new form of Crystallized Meth, that is targeted at children and to be aware of this new form if called to an emergency involving a child that may have symptoms of drug induction or overdose. They are calling this new form of meth "Strawberry Quick" and it looks like the "Pop Rocks" candy that sizzle in your mouth. In its current form, it is dark pink in color and has a strawberry scent to it. Please advise your children and their friends and other students not to accept candy from strangers as this is obviously an attempt to seduce children into drug use. They also need to be cautious in accepting candy from even friends that may have received it from someone else, thinking it is just candy. I don't want this email to scare anyone, but as a Parent first, Law Enforcement Officer, Coach, Volunteer Firefighter, and friend, I thought it would be best to share this with you, so you can once again talk to your children about the effects of drugs and how easy it could be to take drugs without knowing it, until it is too late. I worry, just as each of you do about kids and drugs and all the problems our kids today are faced with. So please talk with your children about this newest threat to get children addicted to drugs!

I feel like a sex toy That is all I ever really was Held down And played with No feelings or emotions Just a hollow body A child's mind And my heart wrenching screams That tore me apart No one ever heard me Or so it seems Used And tossed to the side Always trying to run and hide Scared And scared My soul forever taken By one too many people Who took me forsaken I will never be the same I'm torn to little pieces Pieces' of me'gone Lost My mind is like a whirlwind Never really slowing down My heart is frozen From the hate' I need this all to end Before it's all too late These memories attacking me Driving me insane I just want this all to make sense This little girl Used And abused Simply tossed away I was doomed from the start I never knew What love was And now My sick and twisted perception Maybe holding me back from all that I love Worthless Useless Merely a toy Just some guy's fun Is all I ever was My voice gone I could never speak This pain is restless It hasn't stopped in weeks No one understands How dark my world is How I cannot escape My worst nightmares My dreams have always Been crushed I wish I could slit my wrists And watch the blood rush I can't give up I need to fight No matter how much My body is shaken in fright Just a sex toy Just a little girl Her innocence Stolen Her memories Forgotten Ten years Later It's all attacking me Forced to be a toy So easily destroyed A little girl A child A baby Simply grew up Was tossed into This unknown world It was time for me to be a big girl No more dolls And candy land games I had to listen Or my Punishment was always Extreme Scared to speak Paralyzed in fear Afraid to acknowledge All I know to be real Running away from all that I'm afraid of LIFE

Why does love hurt and make me cry? Wishing I was with you or much rather die? Why does it seem like this was meant to be, Testing the love between you and me? The stars are so many; I can't even count, That’s how much I miss you, no doubt! Why does it feel like I am trapped? And you are my hero without a map? Knowing you'll be waiting whenever I call, You'll always be there whenever I fall. Why does love hurt and make me sad? I want to hurt myself because I am so mad! The pain inside me is so real, It's hard to believe you’re the real deal. I reach out to you but you are not there, My heartaches seem so hard to bare. I know you think this is so unfair, I could just leave and not even care. People will say we're not really in love, But only we can tell if our love is love. Sometimes I feel all alone, As if I could be in my own little zone. Wishing I could hold you again and again, Knowing when I'm with you there is no end. Why does love hurt and get bundled up inside? The butterflies are gone and maybe even died. I'd wish and I'd wish, but wishes don’t come true. For if I had to wish, I'd wish for you! You can’t give up on love when you know it is there, You promised you wouldn't hurt my heart, not even a tear. So now when I lay down to dream at night, I dream that someday we’ll be back in the light. Hoping you'll always be right by my side, Protecting me, loving me, kissing me too, Caring for me and saying, "I do.” How do you question love and know what it means? For I've never felt this way, are you the right one? You make me feel so special and touch me like you care, Knowing you might have to let go. You said you'd wait forever 'till I was back in your arms. You said you'd wait a lifetime to see my stunning smile. You said you'd make me happy And love me more then anyone. How can this be? How easy is it to fall in love? Because it wasn't hard for me. You’re all I ever wanted and maybe a little more But if this was meant to be, I don’t regret a thing. I'm sure it was and now you'll have to wait. For falling asleep with you, I'd go back and do it again. To just have you in my presence And hold your loving hand and never let go. It may have cost me my life and maybe even you, But someday we'll be the same as we were then. Because you never stop loving someone, You can only love them more!

Make me bleed Aim for the heart It's what you need ... All that I feel Is bleeding out All of my fears All of the doubt I'm bleeding out The pain and the fear I'm bleeding out The end is so near What made me so dark Twisted and weak What caused the pain Hurt and misery I'm letting it out I'm letting it go I won't be caught again Lying so low I'm bleeding out The pain and the fear I'm bleeding out The future is near When the blood is all gone The anger disappears The newly found light Replaces the fears

They say when your life is over the past flashes before your eyes, You are my past and future and I hold you deep inside, while my life exits through my cries. The tears build up and i release them as they fall and down my face, I wish God would help me make you happy and help me through this painful phase. Dear god If you could lend me a hand I will take you into my heart and wipe away my tears, I could give him the world he has always wanted and help him get over his fears. He wants me to move on , he wants me to have a nice life, How can I grab his heart and force it to rewind? Will we ever love again, cant you make him see I will wait? He has been taken away but I know we can overcome this test of fate. Ive had dreams of him and while we were growing old, But in my heart I know he wants a knew start and im no longer the one he wants to hold. He wants me gone, he wants me out of his life, He dosnt love me anymore, he doesnt want me for his wife. You have failed me once again, an taken my happiness away, And to thank I got down and my knee's and to you I prayed. I asked for your help in my time of need, But now Im frightened I lost my love over something I didnt do and now I can not breathe. Are we really over, Are we really through? Here I am again praying to you. Dear heavenly Father I love him with all my heart help me hold on, I feel like my life is over since he made it clear he is gone, Help me do this, help me make him see, I would never hurt him and he is wrong about me. And with out him I could never love again, God please help me make him love me, Amen.

Tears fall rapidly As I sit alone here sadly Your face in my head My heart feeling dead. I know that it's over Which makes my heart even lower God, I want there to be a you and me But it's plain that it's just not meant to be. Now it's time to accept the true scene Time to let go of the dream You wont kiss me in the moonlight rain or the snow And why I'm not good enough I guess I'll never know

Here I am once again down and depressed writing to you as I'm dying slowly inside of me. You came back to my thoughts. I thought you were gone but I was wrong. You have been in my thoughts again. I've been thinking of you these past 2 days. Right now I feel I can only turn to you. You're the only one that can solve my problems. You're the only one who can help me and make all my pain go away. Oh Suicide, what shall I do ? I,m so depressed and always thinking of Death even though I'm scared of it. I'm so fed up of everything going on in my life. I want to live but I'm just not able too. I'm too weak. I'm not strong. The pain has taken over me. I've failed myself again. I'm fed up of crying. Fed up of trying and to be happy. I keep my head real low so no one can see the pain that shows. There's nothing left for me to do. The game of life is hard to play but I'm gonna lose it anyway* Oh Suicide, what shall I do ? You're the only one I can turn too.