I am sitting here thinking bout the person i was in the past..the person i am at present and the person i want to become..I am pleased with who i am..a smart, spunky, big-hearted, Boston Irish woman..and im happy..dammit im happy..I have a few personal things to fix like get a job..go back to school..but i know i will have a job in a week or 2 and i will be in school and have less to worry bout after i save in a year or 2..things will work out woot woot..Three years ago i woulda hid under a couch and cried..thinkin ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh....lol...but I changed ..i am a more positive person now...I don't care what ppl think of me...and i don't let the things I Can't change bother me...but so many ppl it seems use thier past as a weapon..as a reason to hurt others..how cool is that??/ Reverting back to a teenager ...these ppl generally are the most unhappy ppl ...do urself a favor and change...its hard i know..doors get slammed in ur face over and over but it makes u a stronger person..a better person..A door will open or there will be an open window..it is so worth it to move on...to get so stuck in ur past that u find urself alone in the future is not the solution..the person ur mad at has moved on..the person u hate is getting stronger or simply does not care..let it go let it go ..u are hurting urself not them..i know all this from experience..i changed..i am a better person for it..and i love the ppl who love me back not the ppl who just want me round for the present..they are not worth my time,,anyways u choose who the hell u are..don't blame others.take a look at urself first..DAMMIT ALL!!!!!!