TashyKristiCrazy's blog: "Bitch and Moan"

Is it that greedy of a concept to want the situation from my side be heard and understood? All the main people in my life whenever there's ever been an arguement i don't have a side... there's just wrong on my side no matter my motivations my logic my thoughts... there isn't a side just a falsiety.... all i want is my side given the same consideration.... is that so greedy in the greater human scope of things?

How can some one who loves you... hurt so much? Without trying? It just seems the more and more i try to keep things going on the worse they mess up... i just want things calm and happy and i just can't seem to get it... Oh in other bad news... my friends baby died... just a few weeks old so i'm out of town helping out for a little bit trying to make things easier on people

yes i put pictures up and yes i know they're older but they're the only ones i got right now because i haven't got a digital camera for a bit... When i get one or borrow a friends there will be more recent ones up... till then deal with the old shit! lol...

My sexy little baby finally hit the tap and hopefully we'll get him addicted eh? get the fussy one offa that myspace blah

It hurts but sometime i have to sit there and consider the possibility that leaving my baby might be the best thing for him. I just start thinking i'm holding him back from being happy that i'm not what's the best thing for him. Sometimes i just think that while it would hurt him to start with losing me I think that in the end he'd find something better. SOmething better that he wouldn't find because if i were there he wouldn't look for it and so would not see it. I just want him to be able to have his ultimate happiness... I want him to find the best happiness in his life that he can and if i get in the way of it i ought to leave. Sometimes i just feel like we're too wrong and too different for each other. I fear i hold him back. I know theres people who think he shouldn't be with me. That there are just people who think i'm way too immature and wrong for him. I just fear that maybe they're right..